Bloggie,
Anyways, um..i had a great time today, with my mother. I went to watch Meet the Fockers in ex and it was so freakin funny. I guess that was like the first movie I’ve watched with my mum in like 10 years or so. Long time ay? Normally it’s with my mum and sisters. But today we had an alone time and I tried talking to her about how much sasa wants a belly piercing, oh god the square-minded, hard to persuade em to say “Yes” which is why I couldn’t stand it last time and went straight on and pierced it. Anyways we finally went to the grand Hyatt lounge, the last time I went there was like 3 years back, it’s so awesome, the view from the top is beautiful. I guess that is why it’s so hard to leave this country, it’s just so enjoyable. Yay! I finally bought myself some nice lingerie from PRESENCE, wuhoo! It’s one of those nice lacy black ones, ooh lace..haha…I used to hate lace so much, but now…I think it’s quite sexy actually. Oh god you know who has nice eyes? Robbie Williams! It’s so nice and green….uggh..but overall he’s not that good lookn, just his eyes. I’m meeting Damien this Tuesday before he goes off to Sydney. Just feel like hanging out with him for some reason. hmm...i'm in a happy mood! happy happy happy! wow..haven't been this happy for a fuckin long time.
anyways, ima bounce now,
cu
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
At this moment...
At this moment i feel completely lost and empty inside, as well as desperate for someone to care for me. My xbf just called but i rejected the call cuz i duno just not in the mood to talk to him, it's tiring. Why is it that whenever i ned that one person the most, they are always unavailable? And when they are right by my side, that's when i dont' need them and stash em away. I';m so angry at myself, i feel so pathetic, like living in this life is so meaningless for me. I need to get all this shitty load off my shoulders and just feel care free...wipeee! I want to paint my life red, i wanna be a happy and healthy person, i guess i just need some guidance from someone i trust. Damn..mur and abs are in oz, that is so sad. So sad for me to go back to jakarta knowing that my two good friends are gone for good. But they give me the motivation to visit them. So i don't wanna be all sad. hehe. Mur if ur with me, i miss you shit loads, like you have no idea mon...what is bernie without its ernie? :D And ABU, i miss you damn mucho too, u've been such a great ass friend and i appreciate it, i had time torturing you, annoying you cuz that is what cheppi's do best, annoy and tease ppl, make em suffer! Sometimes i seem to give the impression that i lead a normal and happy life, but deep down inside, i'm so tired and rather unstable. I seem to be locked up in a room, just that i need to find the right keys to get me out from this mess. Actually, i don't even know waht's bothering me. It's just a stir of emotions rolling in my head that drives me insane. Yeah well mur, that guy i told you about, he's so annoying, it's like i keep thinking about him, can't help it really. No i don't LOVE him, just plain like. Well anyways, i'm going off, gotta check in!
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Do you know where im at?
At this moment of time, i am lost. I'm in penang now, i have the crab by my side, but when i return to jkt, i'll be lost. it's 6 ish right now in malaysia but it looks as if you just woke up on a bright bright sunshiney afternoon, different from jkt, at this hour, jakarta will be dark n gloomy. I don't have any of my best friends there anymore and that is freakin sad. I haven't done much the past few days, but spending time with my penang friends really made me feel much better. I might be going to CHILL OUT tonight to CHILL OUT, but the usual, there's transportation problemos thanks to the bad timing and shit like that. So i've just been crashing at kelly's plc reading national geo's and readers digest after having a big ass laughing session of American Idol, retarded! Man i mwish everybody, even people i see around college (altho i dunt even know their names). But i just need to focus on something rather than just have a holiday of doing nothing. Well ima call it quits now, gotta take a shower.
It's a sunny day, but why doesn't the sun shine down on me? I need the SUn bad.
Byee..
It's a sunny day, but why doesn't the sun shine down on me? I need the SUn bad.
Byee..
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Days are days..
Well we just hung out at Chris' aptment by the poolside and shit we were stoned on yummeee weed which of course after received the munchies for Mr.wiwid and his famous roti bakars and bubur komplit, Awesome!
But we just ate sweet stuff, that about it yo. hmm...it was so funny in the car cuz murti kept on laughing her freakin ass off and donna was just so budek all of a sudden, hearing mouth as "mum" and well thats hard to explain! haha..and i thought i was driving fast, but when i shook my head, i realized i was driving so fuckin slow, not even 40 km per hour, fuck..haha that was hilarious.
Murs sleeping now. Damn to think about it, she's leaving so soon, i'm leaving real soon cuz ihave to, but damn...ill be coming back here and when i do, murti wont' be here. I"ll have abs and dons, then abhi will be gone, holy fuck. I'll be sad. Or mebe abs will be gone by hten. I'm leaving this thursday, that is in like a day plus! Damn boay! I'm going to Penang..weeeee...haha i can't wait to see them n i bought joyce some pretty gurly thangs, something she'll like, i hope at least. hehe :D
Hmm,,im terribly yearning for the adidas shell shocks man, i want em bad. Ill get em from sungai wang plaza or wherever where it's cheap and good bahan. But if it ain't original, fuck it,i'll just spend my money for the expensivo ones. I
want it bwad!
Alright, peace out mofockers..
But we just ate sweet stuff, that about it yo. hmm...it was so funny in the car cuz murti kept on laughing her freakin ass off and donna was just so budek all of a sudden, hearing mouth as "mum" and well thats hard to explain! haha..and i thought i was driving fast, but when i shook my head, i realized i was driving so fuckin slow, not even 40 km per hour, fuck..haha that was hilarious.
Murs sleeping now. Damn to think about it, she's leaving so soon, i'm leaving real soon cuz ihave to, but damn...ill be coming back here and when i do, murti wont' be here. I"ll have abs and dons, then abhi will be gone, holy fuck. I'll be sad. Or mebe abs will be gone by hten. I'm leaving this thursday, that is in like a day plus! Damn boay! I'm going to Penang..weeeee...haha i can't wait to see them n i bought joyce some pretty gurly thangs, something she'll like, i hope at least. hehe :D
Hmm,,im terribly yearning for the adidas shell shocks man, i want em bad. Ill get em from sungai wang plaza or wherever where it's cheap and good bahan. But if it ain't original, fuck it,i'll just spend my money for the expensivo ones. I
want it bwad!
Alright, peace out mofockers..
Monday, January 17, 2005
Hailai Oi!
haha....
Abhi! I read ur blog you fat idiot, you manwhore, you bitch, you nipple biter, you fuckin arse wipe, and all thsoe bloody curse shit i crap about at you! haha...
Hey you gotttaaaa really admit that hailai was fun as hell man, i mean that plc does look like hell, the dance floor kicks all the clubs ass, the lights are just so visually perfect to the eyes of the E suckers and the crowd is just fugly (yeah i know) full of all those horrible old wrinkly chinese rich men booking all those indo prossies for one whole night of fuckin, i feel like tea bagging them, yeah abs lets go tea bag em, they deserve the art of tea bagging, let's show em! hehe...
Anyways hte only reason why i sang the stupidest songs was becuz i wanted to annoy you, like duh what else, from britney to chinese songs i barely even recognize, from the old boy band days to the kinky video of who again? the one with the girl massaging his breasts, that is just so pathetically stupid...and tacky and once again of course, KINKY mon..Kinky! But i had fun annoying you to the bone, squeezing out the laughter out of ur old boring face, haha JOshin you dude. Anyways..i had fun seriously. i did cuz i got to sing like an idiot and boy you weren' thte only person that heard me saying "you sexy dance, you sexy dance" a repeated number of times, the operators heard it man, now look im aware that this is the downfall of my reputation, but who cares right? Damn i wasn't even drunk too, imust be one brave chick ay? yeah abhi, praise me, beg me for my grand karaoke performances once again cuz you fuckin deserve it. Imagine if mur was there, she' db elike "what hte fuck?!" haha...oh god im running out of breath here. whoo...
anyways abs where are you man, been trying to buzz you lately, tapi u just never freakin balas, you better balas or else i'll teabag you my little babyfucker. haha: BAFO! So bafo, this is our master plan, actually Ernie's master plan, Ernie suggested we smoke up dulu trus crash in her crib and nonton the WHITE CHICKS n just laugh to the whole fuckin thang when we're all high and shit...das cool right? you have got to aggreeeee, you have got to show up later okay, if not i swear you will experience the art of tea bagging, trust me on that. :P
Okay anyways, i'm off for now, haven't been doing anything lately, just stayed at home and rested and drinking my Es teh tawar, shhhhh abs don't say "ew, es teh tawar!" Or else i'll order you some roti pisang, you can't get enough of those 2 words, the moment i sed it you went cwazeeee..
aites, i'm off
POOOF goes the magical bel! *****
Abhi! I read ur blog you fat idiot, you manwhore, you bitch, you nipple biter, you fuckin arse wipe, and all thsoe bloody curse shit i crap about at you! haha...
Hey you gotttaaaa really admit that hailai was fun as hell man, i mean that plc does look like hell, the dance floor kicks all the clubs ass, the lights are just so visually perfect to the eyes of the E suckers and the crowd is just fugly (yeah i know) full of all those horrible old wrinkly chinese rich men booking all those indo prossies for one whole night of fuckin, i feel like tea bagging them, yeah abs lets go tea bag em, they deserve the art of tea bagging, let's show em! hehe...
Anyways hte only reason why i sang the stupidest songs was becuz i wanted to annoy you, like duh what else, from britney to chinese songs i barely even recognize, from the old boy band days to the kinky video of who again? the one with the girl massaging his breasts, that is just so pathetically stupid...and tacky and once again of course, KINKY mon..Kinky! But i had fun annoying you to the bone, squeezing out the laughter out of ur old boring face, haha JOshin you dude. Anyways..i had fun seriously. i did cuz i got to sing like an idiot and boy you weren' thte only person that heard me saying "you sexy dance, you sexy dance" a repeated number of times, the operators heard it man, now look im aware that this is the downfall of my reputation, but who cares right? Damn i wasn't even drunk too, imust be one brave chick ay? yeah abhi, praise me, beg me for my grand karaoke performances once again cuz you fuckin deserve it. Imagine if mur was there, she' db elike "what hte fuck?!" haha...oh god im running out of breath here. whoo...
anyways abs where are you man, been trying to buzz you lately, tapi u just never freakin balas, you better balas or else i'll teabag you my little babyfucker. haha: BAFO! So bafo, this is our master plan, actually Ernie's master plan, Ernie suggested we smoke up dulu trus crash in her crib and nonton the WHITE CHICKS n just laugh to the whole fuckin thang when we're all high and shit...das cool right? you have got to aggreeeee, you have got to show up later okay, if not i swear you will experience the art of tea bagging, trust me on that. :P
Okay anyways, i'm off for now, haven't been doing anything lately, just stayed at home and rested and drinking my Es teh tawar, shhhhh abs don't say "ew, es teh tawar!" Or else i'll order you some roti pisang, you can't get enough of those 2 words, the moment i sed it you went cwazeeee..
aites, i'm off
POOOF goes the magical bel! *****
Friday, January 14, 2005
Birthdays over..:-I
Anyways, i woke up pretty late on the 14th. Haha...what a good way to spend your birthday ay? Not that my birthday's really important to me, friends are far more important. I don't know but when it's my birthday, i don't care about myself, the only think i care about is which friends are loyal to me. It's always the unexpected that end up surprising you with birthday greetings. Well to tell the truth, i didn' t really have fun, everything messed up! Just everything man, i was looking forward to my pill and suddenly what do i know, entrance fee increases and people just don't wanna go in no more. So yeah i didn't pop lastnight, it was ruined. I wanted to get wild and crazy, get unconscious but noooo...i just ended up grumpy and sober. That is the worst. I wanted to at least get wasted, but i didn't. Well i went to starbux with my sister and that guy actually remembered it was my birthday and gave me a free drink, how nice really. That cheered me up from the awful night i had. I don't know why i was so depressed, i guess cuz i didn't end up goin to Stadium, haha but not really there's more to that. Yay i'm 18, haha everythings legal now. Drugs, drinks, cigs, everything. wuhoo! But not really though, cuz in KL you have to be like either 19-21, ur lucky if they don't check ur ID. hmm...i'm still not tired man, not at all. Damn looks like i'm not leaving this sunday, my dad doesn't want me to. Fuck him mon. Oh well, it's only postponed to a few more days, no biggie. Aight, i have to go now, gotta write some pretty leetterssss...:D hey i'm trying to cheer myself up k.
TooDlooo...
TooDlooo...
Thursday, January 13, 2005
My birthday countdown.
It wasn't a really special countdown, not like a new years eve event or something, but it was really cute. Anyways, we went to lil baghdad for some shishas and the funny thang is donna still had some left over weed from the cigs, so she just poured some over the top where the charcoal burns, damn it was quite effective, we got pretty high.
Anyways my cake was such a major disaster, Pandor made it, but it lumered all over and got all soft. Not nice. I can't wait for Stadium tomoro man! I just wanna get hyper and hook up cuz i haven't done that in a long time. And by the way they are not OLD guys! They are all below 30 god dammit!
But i've been really tired today man, everyone in the party was all lemas and stuff. FUck i'm 18! Everything's legal! Yay?! But the bad thing is that i have to be more serious about uni, i haven't really been doing my best, haven't given my full motivation and effort. I'm just plain lazy. Besides its my 2nd year, this is when things get serious and the year where you really have to select your own career path and opportunities. I feel so irresponsible and not proud of what i've done the last few years, i need to grow up, cut down on all the drinking, clubbing, yah just all the bad vices that mean temptation to me. I have to stop! haha..nah i won't just quit like that, it takes a while to decrease such habits. Hmm...wow..i'm the only one awake in my house, my sisters have collapsed in bed, my mother collapsed as soon as the party started, and all my friends have left the building. :P So i'll just go out for some menthol lights to just let my mind flow around and ponder. I need some thinking time, thinkin space. Yes yes. This is where i have to leave you and oh well i pray for a good day ahead of me! :D
toodles, BELLY
Anyways my cake was such a major disaster, Pandor made it, but it lumered all over and got all soft. Not nice. I can't wait for Stadium tomoro man! I just wanna get hyper and hook up cuz i haven't done that in a long time. And by the way they are not OLD guys! They are all below 30 god dammit!
But i've been really tired today man, everyone in the party was all lemas and stuff. FUck i'm 18! Everything's legal! Yay?! But the bad thing is that i have to be more serious about uni, i haven't really been doing my best, haven't given my full motivation and effort. I'm just plain lazy. Besides its my 2nd year, this is when things get serious and the year where you really have to select your own career path and opportunities. I feel so irresponsible and not proud of what i've done the last few years, i need to grow up, cut down on all the drinking, clubbing, yah just all the bad vices that mean temptation to me. I have to stop! haha..nah i won't just quit like that, it takes a while to decrease such habits. Hmm...wow..i'm the only one awake in my house, my sisters have collapsed in bed, my mother collapsed as soon as the party started, and all my friends have left the building. :P So i'll just go out for some menthol lights to just let my mind flow around and ponder. I need some thinking time, thinkin space. Yes yes. This is where i have to leave you and oh well i pray for a good day ahead of me! :D
toodles, BELLY
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Just got back from hippity hop
Dear Bloggie,
hehe..i just dropped don at chris' plc. Jo, Don, and I suddenly had the munchies from weed and urgently rushed to INDO GAYA rasa for some real food, yknow nasi goreng ayam special, great stuff. it was a fun night, i was fuckin stoned and jo's eyes were all funny and cute, dono kept on wanting to dance on the loudassmofospeakers, so when a song i liked shot up, i went up thinkin she would temenin me, but hse's like "nah..you dance alone, haha" i was like oh the hell, oh well..so what and just danced. Mekasih don. :D
Song like turn me on, no lettin go, everyone falls in love sometimes are all the IN songs now to spin in clubs. I'm kinda sick of it tho, been listening to no letting go every freakin day for at least more than a dozen times. nah i exaggerated that bit, at least 7 times (due to sasa, that freak!)
Oh well i'm having a cute little dinner parte besok, on the 13th, i mean tonight, yeah i know..haha don was so cute, she was like "Oh yeah we can have a countdown on da 13th!" and i was like "heh? i ddin't think about that dude." Ohwell life is short, enjoy it to the fullest.
Yknow what damien said to me? He sed i do everything really fast, meaning i start too fast in life. Like coll, clubbn, that typa shit, and he sed who knows i might even die fast. Lets hope not ay? Although sometimes i feel like dying, but seriously i'm enjoying part of my life and i at least want to be more of a successful person than i am now. Oh poor sisters of mine, they are both awake for the first day of the 2nd semester of skoo..haha kasianmon. Damn i can't wait to go to 'stadium', haha don is more impatient than i am, trust me. I'll get my ferrari pill there and i'm all set to trance mode. :P Fuck i still haven't eaten nasi padang! Yeah yeah i know all i think about is FOOD, indonesian food is the best, now now i'm not saying its the best cuz i grew up here, i'm saying its hte best cuz i've tried all and now i can make my conclusion. So in conclusion, indo food is the best, its spicy and yummy!
Alright, i'm gonna bail, gonna go shopping with my nyokap nanti. CYouss..
hehe..i just dropped don at chris' plc. Jo, Don, and I suddenly had the munchies from weed and urgently rushed to INDO GAYA rasa for some real food, yknow nasi goreng ayam special, great stuff. it was a fun night, i was fuckin stoned and jo's eyes were all funny and cute, dono kept on wanting to dance on the loudassmofospeakers, so when a song i liked shot up, i went up thinkin she would temenin me, but hse's like "nah..you dance alone, haha" i was like oh the hell, oh well..so what and just danced. Mekasih don. :D
Song like turn me on, no lettin go, everyone falls in love sometimes are all the IN songs now to spin in clubs. I'm kinda sick of it tho, been listening to no letting go every freakin day for at least more than a dozen times. nah i exaggerated that bit, at least 7 times (due to sasa, that freak!)
Oh well i'm having a cute little dinner parte besok, on the 13th, i mean tonight, yeah i know..haha don was so cute, she was like "Oh yeah we can have a countdown on da 13th!" and i was like "heh? i ddin't think about that dude." Ohwell life is short, enjoy it to the fullest.
Yknow what damien said to me? He sed i do everything really fast, meaning i start too fast in life. Like coll, clubbn, that typa shit, and he sed who knows i might even die fast. Lets hope not ay? Although sometimes i feel like dying, but seriously i'm enjoying part of my life and i at least want to be more of a successful person than i am now. Oh poor sisters of mine, they are both awake for the first day of the 2nd semester of skoo..haha kasianmon. Damn i can't wait to go to 'stadium', haha don is more impatient than i am, trust me. I'll get my ferrari pill there and i'm all set to trance mode. :P Fuck i still haven't eaten nasi padang! Yeah yeah i know all i think about is FOOD, indonesian food is the best, now now i'm not saying its the best cuz i grew up here, i'm saying its hte best cuz i've tried all and now i can make my conclusion. So in conclusion, indo food is the best, its spicy and yummy!
Alright, i'm gonna bail, gonna go shopping with my nyokap nanti. CYouss..
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Ruffles sour cream...ahhh..yummeee..
Im eating chips, its so yummeee..and everytime i eat em, it reminds me of that kid from malcolm in the middle saying "i want more chips!?" haha..its so fuckin cute. He's so adorable. Ahh its so annoying when youhave arguments with friends, its like so stupid! I learned that guys older than me aren't necessarily waaaaaaaaaay more mature than me, some of em are so childish and silly. So sensitive, i just told you i won't disturb you since ur so busy. It's so annoying, you know who you are man...it's pathetic. God..dude..get over your childishness and learn how to stop being a sensitive ass! Yeah yeah whatever...want a big fight? I don't mind, im not deleting you off my list by the way, cuz i'm not bothered to, ur still my friend...i'm not like you, so i guess i'm not doing what you want me to do and that is deleting you. Ahhh at last i'm finally gonna go swimmin in hotel darmawangsa ama mur and abs, that plc is great. yay! We can take bikini shots...oh lala and murti can wear her newly purchased miu miu pair of shades and i can wear the only guess sunshades that fit me. wipeeedooo! Oh well i feel like racing someone, a few days ago i raced this dude, dunt know him..but he practically lost..haha i think he went 150 and i went 160, but we can't possibly go more than that with cars around the cityroads. And i think i beat him, that feeling of fresh victory..ahhh it feels good. It really means girls can beat guys. Hate dudes that are so sexist.
Shit..i was so desperate to get myself a new pair of lingerie..like those really pretty lacy ones that mur recommended me...i think its called presence or whatever. But it was some nice shit. And i feel like gettn myself a dress from MORGAN, just that its all so tante-like and i hate how all those old chinese woman wear it with all that tebal make up, not good. I definitely don't wanna be one of em. yeah im a bitch, who cares anyway...that's what i do best. Bitch about. These days i've been thinkin lots of my xboy...i mean i realized that altho i'm a pretty bitchy girlfriend that never really spends time with her dude...i actually learn how to miss him. i mean i don't learn, but i mean he would always like invite me here and there and i would always ditch his request and go clubbn or shopn with my girlfriends, but then one day he just stopd asking me out to hang with him and i said..."sayang i'm gonna go out clubn and all ya?" and he was like "yeah..sure...just go ahead with ur girlfriends...i don't mind"..and i was fuckn surprised. haha im so weak ya...that night i ended up accompanying him for dinner at his crib...cuz i was like "what..you want me to go? Don't you miss me?" haha ewww..hate myself ay..i'm such an annoyin piece of shit" But now i'm trying to be a nicer person, just TRYING to be less bitchier. hmm...anyhows...i'm tired..and im goin to go nongkrong...loveeeeee you fatassblog.
Shit..i was so desperate to get myself a new pair of lingerie..like those really pretty lacy ones that mur recommended me...i think its called presence or whatever. But it was some nice shit. And i feel like gettn myself a dress from MORGAN, just that its all so tante-like and i hate how all those old chinese woman wear it with all that tebal make up, not good. I definitely don't wanna be one of em. yeah im a bitch, who cares anyway...that's what i do best. Bitch about. These days i've been thinkin lots of my xboy...i mean i realized that altho i'm a pretty bitchy girlfriend that never really spends time with her dude...i actually learn how to miss him. i mean i don't learn, but i mean he would always like invite me here and there and i would always ditch his request and go clubbn or shopn with my girlfriends, but then one day he just stopd asking me out to hang with him and i said..."sayang i'm gonna go out clubn and all ya?" and he was like "yeah..sure...just go ahead with ur girlfriends...i don't mind"..and i was fuckn surprised. haha im so weak ya...that night i ended up accompanying him for dinner at his crib...cuz i was like "what..you want me to go? Don't you miss me?" haha ewww..hate myself ay..i'm such an annoyin piece of shit" But now i'm trying to be a nicer person, just TRYING to be less bitchier. hmm...anyhows...i'm tired..and im goin to go nongkrong...loveeeeee you fatassblog.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Its 3am..
Well its 300 am and what am i doing awake mon? Today i didn't really do much, well actually i went to ex cuz kenny, cliff, deyta, jana, my sisters, and i felt like having dairy queen, then once i got there, i just didn' thave the appetite for ice cream or anything. Well after that we adjourned to taman lawang, infamous for street ho's and banci's i guess. But i find them quite pretty actually, i tried capturing one with my digicam tapi kods was just driving way too damn fast. But seriously i can't stand people that misjudge those poor human beings, they were just born abnormal, so leave it, leave em alone. I hope in the future, i can write a cover story about them and how they live for money through selling their bodies and just finding new means of ways to look like REAL women. But it is funny, when you see em walking on the streets and flashing their fake tits, it is funny i have to admit. But some of em can be really scary, it's like i feel like making friends with em sometimes, but i'm scared that the minute i wind down my window, they'll like grab my head or something and eat me! hehe :D ..canda deng. I feel like goin on an upside down rolllercoasteeeeeer, a crazy one, yeah i need it bad. I dunt wanna go to Dufan cuz that plc just gives me a constant headache. I don't mind the unsafe rides that creak as you sit on em, but i mean i just don't like the hot bloody sun, gives me a bad sun stroke. But the best part is after you're done with the rides, you just go to one of those tiny booths and buy yourself a pop mie, ahhh..it's heaven for me. Indonesian pop mie which they don't sell in malaysia, i think. Well i've only seen supermie and miegoreng and mie 100 there. haha okay i'll stop with the noodle-talk. Damien!? You actually read this? Man what a surprise to me! Didn't think y ou'd even bother to scroll through the first line, but looks like you did. Am i a great story teller? I bet not.
:D Right now i'm in my living room and underneath the table on which i am typing in this blog lies a tiny field mouse, it's so cute and all but i dont' dare to touch it, the same deal with roaches too man, i can't stand em. They are the worst! Ahhh..what do i feel like eating for breakfast later on ya? I want poffertjes and pancakes, oh god..i was supposed to go to puncak pas for an early feast, but look what happens int he end, plan gets cancelled. I'm leaving jkt this sunday and i'll be having fun ( i hope) in Penang with dear Kelly, i miss that crabby bitch man..she's like my best friend in KL...and i guess i confide in her the most among all my other friends. But i hope i don't get too annoyin and piss her off, cuz that'll lead to a major silent treatment. Hate it. I can't wait to go to chill out girl! we have to have to have to go there aite? There were lots of hot hunks there, i just looked straight ahead, left, right, and there they were, everywhere, just like that. I mean shit man..i was fuckin surprised the moment i opened the door that led to the hip hop section. It was a paradise. :D Awww too bad i can't go jet skiing in penang, after the tsunami incident, i'm sure my moma wouldn't want me to do anything stupid. But seriously, i'm desperate for that rush, i feel like using up my energy. haha. Shit man isn't it sad? No ones going to be here in jakarta anymore, its like i don't feel like coming back this summer, there's just nothing to look forward to anymore, no more fun, no more hangn out and stuff. It's so sad really.
Oh well i'm off to slumberland....wanna meet my cartoon friends and have a drink with em...i'm serious, these type of dreams do occur and its only the best. :D
Lovies, BELLYBUTTONO
:D Right now i'm in my living room and underneath the table on which i am typing in this blog lies a tiny field mouse, it's so cute and all but i dont' dare to touch it, the same deal with roaches too man, i can't stand em. They are the worst! Ahhh..what do i feel like eating for breakfast later on ya? I want poffertjes and pancakes, oh god..i was supposed to go to puncak pas for an early feast, but look what happens int he end, plan gets cancelled. I'm leaving jkt this sunday and i'll be having fun ( i hope) in Penang with dear Kelly, i miss that crabby bitch man..she's like my best friend in KL...and i guess i confide in her the most among all my other friends. But i hope i don't get too annoyin and piss her off, cuz that'll lead to a major silent treatment. Hate it. I can't wait to go to chill out girl! we have to have to have to go there aite? There were lots of hot hunks there, i just looked straight ahead, left, right, and there they were, everywhere, just like that. I mean shit man..i was fuckin surprised the moment i opened the door that led to the hip hop section. It was a paradise. :D Awww too bad i can't go jet skiing in penang, after the tsunami incident, i'm sure my moma wouldn't want me to do anything stupid. But seriously, i'm desperate for that rush, i feel like using up my energy. haha. Shit man isn't it sad? No ones going to be here in jakarta anymore, its like i don't feel like coming back this summer, there's just nothing to look forward to anymore, no more fun, no more hangn out and stuff. It's so sad really.
Oh well i'm off to slumberland....wanna meet my cartoon friends and have a drink with em...i'm serious, these type of dreams do occur and its only the best. :D
Lovies, BELLYBUTTONO
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Just in the mood
Hey Mr. Blog,
haha well it seems mur has already completed scrolling through my previous entries, so here's another one for her to scroll on. Ya my ernie! Now that you're currently in Kalimantan prepared for the ceremony of your spiritual "OPENING", this so-called blog entry is dedicated to thee. I don't know what will happen to you, i'm thinking nothing really tapi mebe you'll just be more sensitive and vulnerable to things and perhaps your perception of life will change a slight bit. Ngk tau ah. Anyways today i didn't really do anything, just went to PS to walk around, went to lil baghdad to kidnap my sis back from her odd crowd of friends and had some strawberry shisha (deli), trus adjourned to 2nd floor for a beer, and ended up in SUBUD for some rumput! The green green grass of home..haha, you know that song? I don't think so ay. da fucks up with me and "ays" mon? Shit, you've got to stop me mur, stop meeee! hehe...stinko demayo...i quote taquito. Today was a restless day i have to say, i was just fuckin tired, my body is so lemas from a pretty louzy massage i had a few days ago, man they hit the wrong points, sometimes i'm so scared to get paralyzed. My neck aches; my back aches;and my thighs ache. Fuck mur! Lets just go to 'jamu-jamu' or 'bersih sehat' lain kali ya. I need aromatherapy, life's all about relaxation for krystaboo. hehe...but right now, what i really need is reflexology bebe...my poor feet have been workin so damn hard these days, always on the go, it's time to pamper em. So be it..besok gue harus janji to myself that i have to go to FOOTISH. I mean its an aromatherapy/reflexology plc, how shweet is that? Mur don't make me go without you..haha i will anyway then i'll just tell you whether its good shit or not. Abhi was telling me about our first bali trip together, he sed they went to a massage parlour and he picked the prettiest chick for cliff..haha..and a dude had to massage his feet. It was funny, how we were talking about who and who isn't a virgin in our class. haha it was so funny! And plus we were bitching about people, how funny. Love is blind they say? It is pretty true when i witness all these girlfriends of mine trying to kill themselves, hurt themselves just bcuz they're boyfs don't love em back, thats sad mon. I wouldn't want that to happen to me mur, i'm scared it will tho...its so risky to love someone and to also end up realizing that they don't love you the same way. So i wouldn't wanna risk that. But just seeing all these girls gets me so sick, it's like they can't stand up, they just can't control themselves and run nuts. It's stupid and tough on em, i know tapi uggh...it's really annoying! I'm totally the wrong friend to consult in terms of relationships and shit, hell i'm better at solving other ppls probs rather than my own. Like this dude, damien in my mass comm class, dude he's so fucked from this recent break up. He loved this girl n i guess they were highschool sweethearts, but eventually she ended it and that just pierced him bad. Even until now, he still complains to me about that bitch, about how he just can't help but love her so much. i guess your first love will always remain in you. Just like mine...haha...i so remember i had my first kiss from him. But i was like 6 back then, but everythings so clear in my mind. I wanna meet him so bad, but where is he, he's gone. I wouldn't even know if he was dead or alive anyway. Wow i feel so cerewet today, fuck my b.indo is getting so kaku, i can't stand this!? My tongue gets fuckn twisted in between sentences. Especially when i try asking my helper something. I'm like...um..mbak pri..'bisa um..bisa' and my tongue just fucks up. yay i haven't been to citos in a few days, world record, world record! i want nasi padang! i wanna eat like a messy pig, it's hard to do that in KL, cuz people barely eat with their hands there...so i feel like a complete outcast when it comes to eating anything that involves rice. i hate eating it with utensils, fuck utensils mon! Oi muri, haha i mean my dear ernie. So mur, you gonna try some m&m's with me or what? I haven't tried it yet, i think i'm just gonna have mine done omellette style. haha. i have a strange feeling it'll turn out quite yummy actually. Damn everyones askin me what im gonna do for my bday, i hvnt really given any thought about it, this year just seems so odd, like even my birthday won't stand out from other normal days. it's like i'll be celebrating nobody's bday. No major celebrations, i've learned my lesson from getting pushed in the pool, not nice. Something simple and memorable, i like! :D Fuck! i can't draw, i can't make collages, i can't cook, i can't read, i can't even make cards, hell i can't do anything these days, i can only club, eat, drink, smoke, laze around, and wala das about it dudette. Gosh! Idiot! quote mr. Napolean Dynamite. Fuckin pathetically hilarious movie. Okay i'm gonna peace out now! Don't want to bore any of you's! :P
Bel signing off...
haha well it seems mur has already completed scrolling through my previous entries, so here's another one for her to scroll on. Ya my ernie! Now that you're currently in Kalimantan prepared for the ceremony of your spiritual "OPENING", this so-called blog entry is dedicated to thee. I don't know what will happen to you, i'm thinking nothing really tapi mebe you'll just be more sensitive and vulnerable to things and perhaps your perception of life will change a slight bit. Ngk tau ah. Anyways today i didn't really do anything, just went to PS to walk around, went to lil baghdad to kidnap my sis back from her odd crowd of friends and had some strawberry shisha (deli), trus adjourned to 2nd floor for a beer, and ended up in SUBUD for some rumput! The green green grass of home..haha, you know that song? I don't think so ay. da fucks up with me and "ays" mon? Shit, you've got to stop me mur, stop meeee! hehe...stinko demayo...i quote taquito. Today was a restless day i have to say, i was just fuckin tired, my body is so lemas from a pretty louzy massage i had a few days ago, man they hit the wrong points, sometimes i'm so scared to get paralyzed. My neck aches; my back aches;and my thighs ache. Fuck mur! Lets just go to 'jamu-jamu' or 'bersih sehat' lain kali ya. I need aromatherapy, life's all about relaxation for krystaboo. hehe...but right now, what i really need is reflexology bebe...my poor feet have been workin so damn hard these days, always on the go, it's time to pamper em. So be it..besok gue harus janji to myself that i have to go to FOOTISH. I mean its an aromatherapy/reflexology plc, how shweet is that? Mur don't make me go without you..haha i will anyway then i'll just tell you whether its good shit or not. Abhi was telling me about our first bali trip together, he sed they went to a massage parlour and he picked the prettiest chick for cliff..haha..and a dude had to massage his feet. It was funny, how we were talking about who and who isn't a virgin in our class. haha it was so funny! And plus we were bitching about people, how funny. Love is blind they say? It is pretty true when i witness all these girlfriends of mine trying to kill themselves, hurt themselves just bcuz they're boyfs don't love em back, thats sad mon. I wouldn't want that to happen to me mur, i'm scared it will tho...its so risky to love someone and to also end up realizing that they don't love you the same way. So i wouldn't wanna risk that. But just seeing all these girls gets me so sick, it's like they can't stand up, they just can't control themselves and run nuts. It's stupid and tough on em, i know tapi uggh...it's really annoying! I'm totally the wrong friend to consult in terms of relationships and shit, hell i'm better at solving other ppls probs rather than my own. Like this dude, damien in my mass comm class, dude he's so fucked from this recent break up. He loved this girl n i guess they were highschool sweethearts, but eventually she ended it and that just pierced him bad. Even until now, he still complains to me about that bitch, about how he just can't help but love her so much. i guess your first love will always remain in you. Just like mine...haha...i so remember i had my first kiss from him. But i was like 6 back then, but everythings so clear in my mind. I wanna meet him so bad, but where is he, he's gone. I wouldn't even know if he was dead or alive anyway. Wow i feel so cerewet today, fuck my b.indo is getting so kaku, i can't stand this!? My tongue gets fuckn twisted in between sentences. Especially when i try asking my helper something. I'm like...um..mbak pri..'bisa um..bisa' and my tongue just fucks up. yay i haven't been to citos in a few days, world record, world record! i want nasi padang! i wanna eat like a messy pig, it's hard to do that in KL, cuz people barely eat with their hands there...so i feel like a complete outcast when it comes to eating anything that involves rice. i hate eating it with utensils, fuck utensils mon! Oi muri, haha i mean my dear ernie. So mur, you gonna try some m&m's with me or what? I haven't tried it yet, i think i'm just gonna have mine done omellette style. haha. i have a strange feeling it'll turn out quite yummy actually. Damn everyones askin me what im gonna do for my bday, i hvnt really given any thought about it, this year just seems so odd, like even my birthday won't stand out from other normal days. it's like i'll be celebrating nobody's bday. No major celebrations, i've learned my lesson from getting pushed in the pool, not nice. Something simple and memorable, i like! :D Fuck! i can't draw, i can't make collages, i can't cook, i can't read, i can't even make cards, hell i can't do anything these days, i can only club, eat, drink, smoke, laze around, and wala das about it dudette. Gosh! Idiot! quote mr. Napolean Dynamite. Fuckin pathetically hilarious movie. Okay i'm gonna peace out now! Don't want to bore any of you's! :P
Bel signing off...
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Friends just keep goin away by the day
Dear BLOG,
whats up? anyways while im at it, i'll make time for you, even though i have to send Kristine off to the airport, just felt like it. Murti's really sleepy and i understand that i should get some rest, but i just keep goin on and on, forcin myself to. This morning, i sent Arty off to her ciputat crib, haha...i'm gonna mmiiis you FLUFFY BUTT...i had fun with her. Spending New years 2005 was really weird. Jason got drunk and started crying, which was fuckin hilarious. MAny more. But i can't really think about it now...as i'm pretty much in a rush, so this entry won't be too detailed. All i can say at the moment is that i'm fucking tired! Oh god i can barely even sit straight, i've been straining my body, walking around, getting only 2 hours or so of sleep, not eating at the right time, and blah blah blah.
okay i'm going to soekarno hatta, see you blogggg..
whats up? anyways while im at it, i'll make time for you, even though i have to send Kristine off to the airport, just felt like it. Murti's really sleepy and i understand that i should get some rest, but i just keep goin on and on, forcin myself to. This morning, i sent Arty off to her ciputat crib, haha...i'm gonna mmiiis you FLUFFY BUTT...i had fun with her. Spending New years 2005 was really weird. Jason got drunk and started crying, which was fuckin hilarious. MAny more. But i can't really think about it now...as i'm pretty much in a rush, so this entry won't be too detailed. All i can say at the moment is that i'm fucking tired! Oh god i can barely even sit straight, i've been straining my body, walking around, getting only 2 hours or so of sleep, not eating at the right time, and blah blah blah.
okay i'm going to soekarno hatta, see you blogggg..
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Sad life it is
I'm not saying my life is sad but i'm saying life does have its occassional ups and downs. Sometimes it's hard to believe that others can die before you do. Like everything you watch on television just seems so surreal, so impossible. So when you see others go before you, you think to yourself, are you this lucky? Why weren't you chosen? etcetera. I'm currently reading about the tsunami attack, disastrous really. Natural disasters such as this just makes you detest nature.
Anyways, i haven't been sleeping well these past few days, i probably have mild insomnia to start with and i just feel so restless, so lethargic. Dammit, nearly everyone's leaving. i wish they all had the same holiday span as i, 3 months bebe. 3 months spells out boredom actually, you just linger around not knowing what to do with the many weeks ahead of you. So far i haven't been doing anything supportive for my mother, i haven't been making use of myself much. Cuz i always wake up late and go out as soon as she comes back home. yeah i'm a useless daughter really, but what can i do? It's my holiday for cryin out loud, it's the only time where i can get to laze around like some couch potatoe. Holiday means FREE time, free time means lazing around, going out with friends, partying, eating anything you want and gaining weight and not caring, watching tv, just chilling, as long as it has nothing to do with paperwork, nothing to do with uni. Then thats what you call a real vacation. But i agree, 3 months is too damn long, by the time i go back to uni, i'll have to reset myself. I'm not even using much of my brain now, mebe i've never used much of it. :o What to do for new years eve ya? I'm not in the clubbing mood and i just recovered from a bad hang over due to lastnights round of champagne and beer. Ohoh im gonna have a beer belly, ew. It was funny cuz i puked right after i saw my sister puking. Anyways we both skipped dinner but chose to fill our empty stomachs with alcohol. Wise you say? I think not.
Okay i need to go now, gotta drive my mother to work and just prove myself useful. Peace out. :D And ernie if you do read this, i say hi to you and you better give me a notice about the new years eve arrangements so we can work something out. work it hard bebe. :P
Anyways, i haven't been sleeping well these past few days, i probably have mild insomnia to start with and i just feel so restless, so lethargic. Dammit, nearly everyone's leaving. i wish they all had the same holiday span as i, 3 months bebe. 3 months spells out boredom actually, you just linger around not knowing what to do with the many weeks ahead of you. So far i haven't been doing anything supportive for my mother, i haven't been making use of myself much. Cuz i always wake up late and go out as soon as she comes back home. yeah i'm a useless daughter really, but what can i do? It's my holiday for cryin out loud, it's the only time where i can get to laze around like some couch potatoe. Holiday means FREE time, free time means lazing around, going out with friends, partying, eating anything you want and gaining weight and not caring, watching tv, just chilling, as long as it has nothing to do with paperwork, nothing to do with uni. Then thats what you call a real vacation. But i agree, 3 months is too damn long, by the time i go back to uni, i'll have to reset myself. I'm not even using much of my brain now, mebe i've never used much of it. :o What to do for new years eve ya? I'm not in the clubbing mood and i just recovered from a bad hang over due to lastnights round of champagne and beer. Ohoh im gonna have a beer belly, ew. It was funny cuz i puked right after i saw my sister puking. Anyways we both skipped dinner but chose to fill our empty stomachs with alcohol. Wise you say? I think not.
Okay i need to go now, gotta drive my mother to work and just prove myself useful. Peace out. :D And ernie if you do read this, i say hi to you and you better give me a notice about the new years eve arrangements so we can work something out. work it hard bebe. :P
Monday, December 27, 2004
Christmas is over just when my xmas spirits are born
Christmas is over, not like i had the xmas spirit. Only now i feel like sending people some xmas greetings, but i have to add the word belated to it. Oh god! hehe..lastnite was an awful night, it wasn't fun and it was just totally frustrating for me. I hate it when you have ur car and ur free, u can go anywhere, but suddenly you just don't seem to go anywhere! It always fucks up due to the big mob of people, everyone has different decisions, and all those different ideas is equivalent to one whole big confusion so in the end, you don't fuckin end up anywhere. You just end up going home cursing the night. uggh..im still pissed..i'm real pissed at jason, cuz he's never around these days and i mean cmon man he'll be in the army, isolated. Yet he still wants to spend his fuckin time up in the mountains, cmon jase..i know you can hear me, i'm bitching about you, not behind ur back, cuz i do hope you'll read this shit. Anyways...terserah loe deh j, whateveryou wanna do, i recommend spending more time with us, cuz when ur with us, ur with kristine. That's the most important thing right jase? Spending time with the person you care so much for? Only now its hitting me, waking up my robotic world, i finally have feelings, i finally feel vulnerable to all these type of situations. I have many problems, but i never seem to confess to my best friends cuz it's so unlike me, so i end up spilling the beans to a stranger or perhaps just a friend i'm not close to. I love the greenday album so far,i like number 11-wake me up when september ends. Ya know what i'm so sick of? Arguing, haha finally. I always want to win everything and i'm a sucker at comebacks, my tongues not sharp enough. hehe...but yet i still wanna make my way through. I don't know if i've growned up tho, but i hope i have. The song "fuck it" is so nice to dance to, the beat and everything, but the thang is...the lyrics seem so degrading for us females. haha.."fuck you you ho, i don't want you back" ...damn i'd punch a guy if i heard him say that to me. "i'm a bitch, i'm a lover, i'm a child, i'm a mother, i'm a sinner i'm a saint, i do not feel ashamed" ..haha i loved that song entitled "BITCH". It was so perfect at that time. Damn i'm so bored at home ay, i mean its nice and cozy, yeah cuz ur safe and sound in ur own little nutshell, but sometimes you just gotta get out, can't stay in the whole day, unless you reallly really feel like it. Recently, i've been too lazy to do shit, just wake up, take a shower, go online, go back to bed, wait for someone to call, then go out, come home in themorning, and the cycle begins again. haha wanna know something Funny? like freakin funny?
I woke up this morning due to all these messages and a few disturbance calls, and as soon as i read the first message, it said like "Krys, how are you man, are you dead? i heard about the earthquake, i mean like reply asap!" I was like what da fuck, all these msgs were about the earthquake, thanks mr.earthquake, all cuza you i get all the sympathy and attention. haha..it's like waking up to birthday greetings, except this is much more surreal. I felt like i was really dead, those messages made me believe i was half dead or something. haha fuck...to me that is worth the laughter. i hate it how some of my friends in KL think Jakartas like some jungle just becuz it has so many problems and its so infamous globally, but yeah so what, it's way better than KL to me, it's like my home i guess. It's so lively and it's always alive, clubbings great cuz you got so many choices n dat drives you nuts, my friends here are the only real friends i've got, i love everything about it, the polluted air, the stinky buses, the crowded and noisy streets, the spicy food, the culture, its so jakarta. Of course i would demand a slight improvement, but i just love it here. I don't want to live here forever tho, but it would be splendid to go to a reunion here. :D HOme is home, no matter how shitty it is or can get. I think i'm out of words now, so before i bore myself..i'ma bail.
gbye.
I woke up this morning due to all these messages and a few disturbance calls, and as soon as i read the first message, it said like "Krys, how are you man, are you dead? i heard about the earthquake, i mean like reply asap!" I was like what da fuck, all these msgs were about the earthquake, thanks mr.earthquake, all cuza you i get all the sympathy and attention. haha..it's like waking up to birthday greetings, except this is much more surreal. I felt like i was really dead, those messages made me believe i was half dead or something. haha fuck...to me that is worth the laughter. i hate it how some of my friends in KL think Jakartas like some jungle just becuz it has so many problems and its so infamous globally, but yeah so what, it's way better than KL to me, it's like my home i guess. It's so lively and it's always alive, clubbings great cuz you got so many choices n dat drives you nuts, my friends here are the only real friends i've got, i love everything about it, the polluted air, the stinky buses, the crowded and noisy streets, the spicy food, the culture, its so jakarta. Of course i would demand a slight improvement, but i just love it here. I don't want to live here forever tho, but it would be splendid to go to a reunion here. :D HOme is home, no matter how shitty it is or can get. I think i'm out of words now, so before i bore myself..i'ma bail.
gbye.
Friday, December 24, 2004
Boulevard of broken dreams it is
Dear Mr.blog,
I rely on you to overcome this boredom of mine. I just came bck from Manna lounge, tomoroz the rewind thang, i'm going probs. I miss hip hop, although i listen to it at home. Just that after that tsunami rave, i wanted rnb and hip hop even more. Duno why. Christmas is happening right now, but no ones awake, everyones just sleepin. At least i'm awake, at least i treasure xmas. haha not. THe dinner tin held at my plc was cool enough, not much ppl came, but it was quite fun. Abhi and i just couldn't stop laughing at that tirette syndrome chick in deuce bigalow...it was so funny how she just had these minor or major outbursts all of a sudden. SHe would say disgusting things like ballhair, nipple biter, funny shit man. I just cried out laughing! I love abs, he's so fun to laugh with. I'm gonna miss that bitch when he's off to sydney.
Life as it is is always like a constant straight line. I need to do something to myself, like give myself a bitch slap and wake up from that boredom.
Boulevard of broken dreams, great song. My sis got me the greenday album and for that i'm thankful. I'veb een in love with this song for weeks, but i dunt want to ruin it by listening to it over and over again. I'll just get tired of it. I like Billie joe armstrong, the way he carries himself off as an artist or punkrocker, imean so what if he's short and small, he's just talented and hot. Shh..i don't give a shit about what you peeps think aites. Okay..my nexxt mission is to complete time crisis 3, oh yeah, i've completed number one and two...now..technology is just challenging me with tougher shit and i know its been on for like a year, but i barely even touched that bloody son of a gun. So now i just need to complete it and hmm...i don't have a new years resolution yet, will decide on that later on.
Okay i'm gonna toodle out, love you my new blog. i'm tryin to get used to you.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
-jingle bell rocks out baby-
I rely on you to overcome this boredom of mine. I just came bck from Manna lounge, tomoroz the rewind thang, i'm going probs. I miss hip hop, although i listen to it at home. Just that after that tsunami rave, i wanted rnb and hip hop even more. Duno why. Christmas is happening right now, but no ones awake, everyones just sleepin. At least i'm awake, at least i treasure xmas. haha not. THe dinner tin held at my plc was cool enough, not much ppl came, but it was quite fun. Abhi and i just couldn't stop laughing at that tirette syndrome chick in deuce bigalow...it was so funny how she just had these minor or major outbursts all of a sudden. SHe would say disgusting things like ballhair, nipple biter, funny shit man. I just cried out laughing! I love abs, he's so fun to laugh with. I'm gonna miss that bitch when he's off to sydney.
Life as it is is always like a constant straight line. I need to do something to myself, like give myself a bitch slap and wake up from that boredom.
Boulevard of broken dreams, great song. My sis got me the greenday album and for that i'm thankful. I'veb een in love with this song for weeks, but i dunt want to ruin it by listening to it over and over again. I'll just get tired of it. I like Billie joe armstrong, the way he carries himself off as an artist or punkrocker, imean so what if he's short and small, he's just talented and hot. Shh..i don't give a shit about what you peeps think aites. Okay..my nexxt mission is to complete time crisis 3, oh yeah, i've completed number one and two...now..technology is just challenging me with tougher shit and i know its been on for like a year, but i barely even touched that bloody son of a gun. So now i just need to complete it and hmm...i don't have a new years resolution yet, will decide on that later on.
Okay i'm gonna toodle out, love you my new blog. i'm tryin to get used to you.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
-jingle bell rocks out baby-
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Tis the season to be jolly, falallalalalla
Dear Blog,
I don't recall the numerous blogs i've had, they are all dead by now. I killed them. Nah i just forgot my username and password, as simple as that. Anyways i do know that this Christmas isn't going to be as amazing as it once was when i was a kid. I used to love decorating the Christmas tree and singing the old xmas carols to my family as i bang on the piano. But as years went by, life just changed tremendouslyfor me. I don't seem to have the motivation or spirit to celebrate anything anymore. That is sad my friend. I try to exert effort, but it's just pathetic really. The spirit should come naturally, not forcefully.
Anyways i'm in Jakarta right now, i'm at home baby. i'm glad, yes but days just seem so dull and boring for me sometimes, i just prefer to stay at home watching tv and munching on home food. Home is home, just gives you that lazy holiday mood. Clubbing isn't my top priority anymore, i don't enjoy it as much as i used to when i first clubbed. 13 years of age, i remember it was my first time ever to hit the clubs, it was when i had my first puff of smoke and first sipped off the glass of hard liquor. I guess i experimented way too early, i wanted to grow up so damn fast, but now that i'm 17, i think my interest in all that dunia malam shit has decreased and none of that shit about growing up was worth it in the long run. My best friends are all here and that is the only reason why my holidays are made enjoyable. Although i don't see them every single day, but as long as i know they're 10 minutes away from me, its all good. Tomorrow i'm holding a small Christmas dinner, my best friends are all coming, which is why i'm glad. Haven't had dinner at home for so long.
hmm..i guess we're going to the mountains for New years eve, sounds a little odd. Going to a rave in puncak? hmm...i don't mind doing something different for a change. Just as long as everybodys going to be there, that's the most important thang bebe. The Tsunami rave was quite fun, i admit, although i wasn't high on drugs nor alcohol. I didn't even drink a sip of anything, but still all that hyper music attacking ur ears just makes you feel like ur not completely at ur sober state. It drunkens you, makes you dance like crazy! Plus the atmosphere is filled with e'd up human beings acting like they have been possessed by the blinking lights and all that trance. Trance just puts you into a trance, it all makes sense now. Wow..i'm a blur really.
Oh god my mum asked me to join this institute thang called "The organizer", i guess she doesn't seem to think i'm organized enough, wants me to be a more scheduled and well-organized individual. That's not me. I'm so new to all this crap really, i don't really indulge in such seriousness in life, i believe things that are unplanned will end up planned. But as you plan things, it just slowly becomes a routine, then all of a sudden you get bored from all that planning and just go unplanned. The fuck am i saying. i guess i've been taking too much biogesics, it's like drugging me bad, making me feel so drowzy and at the same time curing this heavy flu of mine. Recover fast bel, recover fast.
Oh god, i'll be starting my 3rd semester in a month plus, good heavens, it's gonna be so boring for me. I always go to classes late, but at least i hand in my assignments on time. Lecturers are a bore and they know it, they know i don't like em so i guess they choose to detest me in a way. Hopefully that doesn't affect my grades, which i think might be quite possible. They are bitches, only nice to the ones that bother to listen to their dreadful sessions. It's just so mind numbing, makes me want to go crazy as i listen to the words coming out from their dry mouths. When ur studying, everything seems to be in slow motion. Why did i end up in mass comm when what i really wanted was marine biology?! I could be experimenting with creatures and diving underwater rather than writing essays on a regular basis. Shit, it's too late. But i'll make up for that big REGRET somehow in the future, when i'm more successful in life. Ahhh...i love taking a puff of smoke outside my house cuz the weathers just perfect, the darkness falls on you while the lamp post is ur only ray of light. Makes it look like ur outdoor bedroom or something. A natural sanctuary to smell the fresh air and feel healthy, just makes it serene and calm. Know what i miss? I miss barbeque parties, it's so nice. I mean you just drink, eat, and laugh, messy as hell but who the hell cares about manners at that time? Everyone has fun anyway! :D I hate advertisements, i'm a sucker for them. Like this star world promotion about the three tenors performing in the forbidden city in beijing, imean how sweet is that? I wish i could attend! You need dough in this world man! And i got no dough and no way am i referring to my parents for money, it's just too much to ask for. Allowance is all i have and all i need actually, but greediness is just wrong for me, i have to stop being greedy and stop wanting everything in the world.
Anyways i'm off to watch smallville! I'm not a regular fan or anything, but ohwell there's nothing else my eyes can screen on so toodles! -bellybutton-
gnite!
I don't recall the numerous blogs i've had, they are all dead by now. I killed them. Nah i just forgot my username and password, as simple as that. Anyways i do know that this Christmas isn't going to be as amazing as it once was when i was a kid. I used to love decorating the Christmas tree and singing the old xmas carols to my family as i bang on the piano. But as years went by, life just changed tremendouslyfor me. I don't seem to have the motivation or spirit to celebrate anything anymore. That is sad my friend. I try to exert effort, but it's just pathetic really. The spirit should come naturally, not forcefully.
Anyways i'm in Jakarta right now, i'm at home baby. i'm glad, yes but days just seem so dull and boring for me sometimes, i just prefer to stay at home watching tv and munching on home food. Home is home, just gives you that lazy holiday mood. Clubbing isn't my top priority anymore, i don't enjoy it as much as i used to when i first clubbed. 13 years of age, i remember it was my first time ever to hit the clubs, it was when i had my first puff of smoke and first sipped off the glass of hard liquor. I guess i experimented way too early, i wanted to grow up so damn fast, but now that i'm 17, i think my interest in all that dunia malam shit has decreased and none of that shit about growing up was worth it in the long run. My best friends are all here and that is the only reason why my holidays are made enjoyable. Although i don't see them every single day, but as long as i know they're 10 minutes away from me, its all good. Tomorrow i'm holding a small Christmas dinner, my best friends are all coming, which is why i'm glad. Haven't had dinner at home for so long.
hmm..i guess we're going to the mountains for New years eve, sounds a little odd. Going to a rave in puncak? hmm...i don't mind doing something different for a change. Just as long as everybodys going to be there, that's the most important thang bebe. The Tsunami rave was quite fun, i admit, although i wasn't high on drugs nor alcohol. I didn't even drink a sip of anything, but still all that hyper music attacking ur ears just makes you feel like ur not completely at ur sober state. It drunkens you, makes you dance like crazy! Plus the atmosphere is filled with e'd up human beings acting like they have been possessed by the blinking lights and all that trance. Trance just puts you into a trance, it all makes sense now. Wow..i'm a blur really.
Oh god my mum asked me to join this institute thang called "The organizer", i guess she doesn't seem to think i'm organized enough, wants me to be a more scheduled and well-organized individual. That's not me. I'm so new to all this crap really, i don't really indulge in such seriousness in life, i believe things that are unplanned will end up planned. But as you plan things, it just slowly becomes a routine, then all of a sudden you get bored from all that planning and just go unplanned. The fuck am i saying. i guess i've been taking too much biogesics, it's like drugging me bad, making me feel so drowzy and at the same time curing this heavy flu of mine. Recover fast bel, recover fast.
Oh god, i'll be starting my 3rd semester in a month plus, good heavens, it's gonna be so boring for me. I always go to classes late, but at least i hand in my assignments on time. Lecturers are a bore and they know it, they know i don't like em so i guess they choose to detest me in a way. Hopefully that doesn't affect my grades, which i think might be quite possible. They are bitches, only nice to the ones that bother to listen to their dreadful sessions. It's just so mind numbing, makes me want to go crazy as i listen to the words coming out from their dry mouths. When ur studying, everything seems to be in slow motion. Why did i end up in mass comm when what i really wanted was marine biology?! I could be experimenting with creatures and diving underwater rather than writing essays on a regular basis. Shit, it's too late. But i'll make up for that big REGRET somehow in the future, when i'm more successful in life. Ahhh...i love taking a puff of smoke outside my house cuz the weathers just perfect, the darkness falls on you while the lamp post is ur only ray of light. Makes it look like ur outdoor bedroom or something. A natural sanctuary to smell the fresh air and feel healthy, just makes it serene and calm. Know what i miss? I miss barbeque parties, it's so nice. I mean you just drink, eat, and laugh, messy as hell but who the hell cares about manners at that time? Everyone has fun anyway! :D I hate advertisements, i'm a sucker for them. Like this star world promotion about the three tenors performing in the forbidden city in beijing, imean how sweet is that? I wish i could attend! You need dough in this world man! And i got no dough and no way am i referring to my parents for money, it's just too much to ask for. Allowance is all i have and all i need actually, but greediness is just wrong for me, i have to stop being greedy and stop wanting everything in the world.
Anyways i'm off to watch smallville! I'm not a regular fan or anything, but ohwell there's nothing else my eyes can screen on so toodles! -bellybutton-
gnite!
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