Sunday, January 30, 2005

great time

Bloggie,

Anyways, um..i had a great time today, with my mother. I went to watch Meet the Fockers in ex and it was so freakin funny. I guess that was like the first movie I’ve watched with my mum in like 10 years or so. Long time ay? Normally it’s with my mum and sisters. But today we had an alone time and I tried talking to her about how much sasa wants a belly piercing, oh god the square-minded, hard to persuade em to say “Yes” which is why I couldn’t stand it last time and went straight on and pierced it. Anyways we finally went to the grand Hyatt lounge, the last time I went there was like 3 years back, it’s so awesome, the view from the top is beautiful. I guess that is why it’s so hard to leave this country, it’s just so enjoyable. Yay! I finally bought myself some nice lingerie from PRESENCE, wuhoo! It’s one of those nice lacy black ones, ooh lace..haha…I used to hate lace so much, but now…I think it’s quite sexy actually. Oh god you know who has nice eyes? Robbie Williams! It’s so nice and green….uggh..but overall he’s not that good lookn, just his eyes. I’m meeting Damien this Tuesday before he goes off to Sydney. Just feel like hanging out with him for some reason. hmm...i'm in a happy mood! happy happy happy! wow..haven't been this happy for a fuckin long time.
anyways, ima bounce now,
cu

Thursday, January 27, 2005

At this moment...

At this moment i feel completely lost and empty inside, as well as desperate for someone to care for me. My xbf just called but i rejected the call cuz i duno just not in the mood to talk to him, it's tiring. Why is it that whenever i ned that one person the most, they are always unavailable? And when they are right by my side, that's when i dont' need them and stash em away. I';m so angry at myself, i feel so pathetic, like living in this life is so meaningless for me. I need to get all this shitty load off my shoulders and just feel care free...wipeee! I want to paint my life red, i wanna be a happy and healthy person, i guess i just need some guidance from someone i trust. Damn..mur and abs are in oz, that is so sad. So sad for me to go back to jakarta knowing that my two good friends are gone for good. But they give me the motivation to visit them. So i don't wanna be all sad. hehe. Mur if ur with me, i miss you shit loads, like you have no idea mon...what is bernie without its ernie? :D And ABU, i miss you damn mucho too, u've been such a great ass friend and i appreciate it, i had time torturing you, annoying you cuz that is what cheppi's do best, annoy and tease ppl, make em suffer! Sometimes i seem to give the impression that i lead a normal and happy life, but deep down inside, i'm so tired and rather unstable. I seem to be locked up in a room, just that i need to find the right keys to get me out from this mess. Actually, i don't even know waht's bothering me. It's just a stir of emotions rolling in my head that drives me insane. Yeah well mur, that guy i told you about, he's so annoying, it's like i keep thinking about him, can't help it really. No i don't LOVE him, just plain like. Well anyways, i'm going off, gotta check in!

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Do you know where im at?

At this moment of time, i am lost. I'm in penang now, i have the crab by my side, but when i return to jkt, i'll be lost. it's 6 ish right now in malaysia but it looks as if you just woke up on a bright bright sunshiney afternoon, different from jkt, at this hour, jakarta will be dark n gloomy. I don't have any of my best friends there anymore and that is freakin sad. I haven't done much the past few days, but spending time with my penang friends really made me feel much better. I might be going to CHILL OUT tonight to CHILL OUT, but the usual, there's transportation problemos thanks to the bad timing and shit like that. So i've just been crashing at kelly's plc reading national geo's and readers digest after having a big ass laughing session of American Idol, retarded! Man i mwish everybody, even people i see around college (altho i dunt even know their names). But i just need to focus on something rather than just have a holiday of doing nothing. Well ima call it quits now, gotta take a shower.
It's a sunny day, but why doesn't the sun shine down on me? I need the SUn bad.
Byee..

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Days are days..

Well we just hung out at Chris' aptment by the poolside and shit we were stoned on yummeee weed which of course after received the munchies for Mr.wiwid and his famous roti bakars and bubur komplit, Awesome!
But we just ate sweet stuff, that about it yo. hmm...it was so funny in the car cuz murti kept on laughing her freakin ass off and donna was just so budek all of a sudden, hearing mouth as "mum" and well thats hard to explain! haha..and i thought i was driving fast, but when i shook my head, i realized i was driving so fuckin slow, not even 40 km per hour, fuck..haha that was hilarious.
Murs sleeping now. Damn to think about it, she's leaving so soon, i'm leaving real soon cuz ihave to, but damn...ill be coming back here and when i do, murti wont' be here. I"ll have abs and dons, then abhi will be gone, holy fuck. I'll be sad. Or mebe abs will be gone by hten. I'm leaving this thursday, that is in like a day plus! Damn boay! I'm going to Penang..weeeee...haha i can't wait to see them n i bought joyce some pretty gurly thangs, something she'll like, i hope at least. hehe :D
Hmm,,im terribly yearning for the adidas shell shocks man, i want em bad. Ill get em from sungai wang plaza or wherever where it's cheap and good bahan. But if it ain't original, fuck it,i'll just spend my money for the expensivo ones. I
want it bwad!
Alright, peace out mofockers..

Monday, January 17, 2005

Hailai Oi!

haha....
Abhi! I read ur blog you fat idiot, you manwhore, you bitch, you nipple biter, you fuckin arse wipe, and all thsoe bloody curse shit i crap about at you! haha...
Hey you gotttaaaa really admit that hailai was fun as hell man, i mean that plc does look like hell, the dance floor kicks all the clubs ass, the lights are just so visually perfect to the eyes of the E suckers and the crowd is just fugly (yeah i know) full of all those horrible old wrinkly chinese rich men booking all those indo prossies for one whole night of fuckin, i feel like tea bagging them, yeah abs lets go tea bag em, they deserve the art of tea bagging, let's show em! hehe...
Anyways hte only reason why i sang the stupidest songs was becuz i wanted to annoy you, like duh what else, from britney to chinese songs i barely even recognize, from the old boy band days to the kinky video of who again? the one with the girl massaging his breasts, that is just so pathetically stupid...and tacky and once again of course, KINKY mon..Kinky! But i had fun annoying you to the bone, squeezing out the laughter out of ur old boring face, haha JOshin you dude. Anyways..i had fun seriously. i did cuz i got to sing like an idiot and boy you weren' thte only person that heard me saying "you sexy dance, you sexy dance" a repeated number of times, the operators heard it man, now look im aware that this is the downfall of my reputation, but who cares right? Damn i wasn't even drunk too, imust be one brave chick ay? yeah abhi, praise me, beg me for my grand karaoke performances once again cuz you fuckin deserve it. Imagine if mur was there, she' db elike "what hte fuck?!" haha...oh god im running out of breath here. whoo...
anyways abs where are you man, been trying to buzz you lately, tapi u just never freakin balas, you better balas or else i'll teabag you my little babyfucker. haha: BAFO! So bafo, this is our master plan, actually Ernie's master plan, Ernie suggested we smoke up dulu trus crash in her crib and nonton the WHITE CHICKS n just laugh to the whole fuckin thang when we're all high and shit...das cool right? you have got to aggreeeee, you have got to show up later okay, if not i swear you will experience the art of tea bagging, trust me on that. :P
Okay anyways, i'm off for now, haven't been doing anything lately, just stayed at home and rested and drinking my Es teh tawar, shhhhh abs don't say "ew, es teh tawar!" Or else i'll order you some roti pisang, you can't get enough of those 2 words, the moment i sed it you went cwazeeee..
aites, i'm off
POOOF goes the magical bel! *****

Friday, January 14, 2005

Birthdays over..:-I

Anyways, i woke up pretty late on the 14th. Haha...what a good way to spend your birthday ay? Not that my birthday's really important to me, friends are far more important. I don't know but when it's my birthday, i don't care about myself, the only think i care about is which friends are loyal to me. It's always the unexpected that end up surprising you with birthday greetings. Well to tell the truth, i didn' t really have fun, everything messed up! Just everything man, i was looking forward to my pill and suddenly what do i know, entrance fee increases and people just don't wanna go in no more. So yeah i didn't pop lastnight, it was ruined. I wanted to get wild and crazy, get unconscious but noooo...i just ended up grumpy and sober. That is the worst. I wanted to at least get wasted, but i didn't. Well i went to starbux with my sister and that guy actually remembered it was my birthday and gave me a free drink, how nice really. That cheered me up from the awful night i had. I don't know why i was so depressed, i guess cuz i didn't end up goin to Stadium, haha but not really there's more to that. Yay i'm 18, haha everythings legal now. Drugs, drinks, cigs, everything. wuhoo! But not really though, cuz in KL you have to be like either 19-21, ur lucky if they don't check ur ID. hmm...i'm still not tired man, not at all. Damn looks like i'm not leaving this sunday, my dad doesn't want me to. Fuck him mon. Oh well, it's only postponed to a few more days, no biggie. Aight, i have to go now, gotta write some pretty leetterssss...:D hey i'm trying to cheer myself up k.
TooDlooo...

Thursday, January 13, 2005

My birthday countdown.

It wasn't a really special countdown, not like a new years eve event or something, but it was really cute. Anyways, we went to lil baghdad for some shishas and the funny thang is donna still had some left over weed from the cigs, so she just poured some over the top where the charcoal burns, damn it was quite effective, we got pretty high.
Anyways my cake was such a major disaster, Pandor made it, but it lumered all over and got all soft. Not nice. I can't wait for Stadium tomoro man! I just wanna get hyper and hook up cuz i haven't done that in a long time. And by the way they are not OLD guys! They are all below 30 god dammit!
But i've been really tired today man, everyone in the party was all lemas and stuff. FUck i'm 18! Everything's legal! Yay?! But the bad thing is that i have to be more serious about uni, i haven't really been doing my best, haven't given my full motivation and effort. I'm just plain lazy. Besides its my 2nd year, this is when things get serious and the year where you really have to select your own career path and opportunities. I feel so irresponsible and not proud of what i've done the last few years, i need to grow up, cut down on all the drinking, clubbing, yah just all the bad vices that mean temptation to me. I have to stop! haha..nah i won't just quit like that, it takes a while to decrease such habits. Hmm...wow..i'm the only one awake in my house, my sisters have collapsed in bed, my mother collapsed as soon as the party started, and all my friends have left the building. :P So i'll just go out for some menthol lights to just let my mind flow around and ponder. I need some thinking time, thinkin space. Yes yes. This is where i have to leave you and oh well i pray for a good day ahead of me! :D
toodles, BELLY

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Just got back from hippity hop

Dear Bloggie,
hehe..i just dropped don at chris' plc. Jo, Don, and I suddenly had the munchies from weed and urgently rushed to INDO GAYA rasa for some real food, yknow nasi goreng ayam special, great stuff. it was a fun night, i was fuckin stoned and jo's eyes were all funny and cute, dono kept on wanting to dance on the loudassmofospeakers, so when a song i liked shot up, i went up thinkin she would temenin me, but hse's like "nah..you dance alone, haha" i was like oh the hell, oh well..so what and just danced. Mekasih don. :D
Song like turn me on, no lettin go, everyone falls in love sometimes are all the IN songs now to spin in clubs. I'm kinda sick of it tho, been listening to no letting go every freakin day for at least more than a dozen times. nah i exaggerated that bit, at least 7 times (due to sasa, that freak!)
Oh well i'm having a cute little dinner parte besok, on the 13th, i mean tonight, yeah i know..haha don was so cute, she was like "Oh yeah we can have a countdown on da 13th!" and i was like "heh? i ddin't think about that dude." Ohwell life is short, enjoy it to the fullest.
Yknow what damien said to me? He sed i do everything really fast, meaning i start too fast in life. Like coll, clubbn, that typa shit, and he sed who knows i might even die fast. Lets hope not ay? Although sometimes i feel like dying, but seriously i'm enjoying part of my life and i at least want to be more of a successful person than i am now. Oh poor sisters of mine, they are both awake for the first day of the 2nd semester of skoo..haha kasianmon. Damn i can't wait to go to 'stadium', haha don is more impatient than i am, trust me. I'll get my ferrari pill there and i'm all set to trance mode. :P Fuck i still haven't eaten nasi padang! Yeah yeah i know all i think about is FOOD, indonesian food is the best, now now i'm not saying its the best cuz i grew up here, i'm saying its hte best cuz i've tried all and now i can make my conclusion. So in conclusion, indo food is the best, its spicy and yummy!
Alright, i'm gonna bail, gonna go shopping with my nyokap nanti. CYouss..

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Ruffles sour cream...ahhh..yummeee..

Im eating chips, its so yummeee..and everytime i eat em, it reminds me of that kid from malcolm in the middle saying "i want more chips!?" haha..its so fuckin cute. He's so adorable. Ahh its so annoying when youhave arguments with friends, its like so stupid! I learned that guys older than me aren't necessarily waaaaaaaaaay more mature than me, some of em are so childish and silly. So sensitive, i just told you i won't disturb you since ur so busy. It's so annoying, you know who you are man...it's pathetic. God..dude..get over your childishness and learn how to stop being a sensitive ass! Yeah yeah whatever...want a big fight? I don't mind, im not deleting you off my list by the way, cuz i'm not bothered to, ur still my friend...i'm not like you, so i guess i'm not doing what you want me to do and that is deleting you. Ahhh at last i'm finally gonna go swimmin in hotel darmawangsa ama mur and abs, that plc is great. yay! We can take bikini shots...oh lala and murti can wear her newly purchased miu miu pair of shades and i can wear the only guess sunshades that fit me. wipeeedooo! Oh well i feel like racing someone, a few days ago i raced this dude, dunt know him..but he practically lost..haha i think he went 150 and i went 160, but we can't possibly go more than that with cars around the cityroads. And i think i beat him, that feeling of fresh victory..ahhh it feels good. It really means girls can beat guys. Hate dudes that are so sexist.
Shit..i was so desperate to get myself a new pair of lingerie..like those really pretty lacy ones that mur recommended me...i think its called presence or whatever. But it was some nice shit. And i feel like gettn myself a dress from MORGAN, just that its all so tante-like and i hate how all those old chinese woman wear it with all that tebal make up, not good. I definitely don't wanna be one of em. yeah im a bitch, who cares anyway...that's what i do best. Bitch about. These days i've been thinkin lots of my xboy...i mean i realized that altho i'm a pretty bitchy girlfriend that never really spends time with her dude...i actually learn how to miss him. i mean i don't learn, but i mean he would always like invite me here and there and i would always ditch his request and go clubbn or shopn with my girlfriends, but then one day he just stopd asking me out to hang with him and i said..."sayang i'm gonna go out clubn and all ya?" and he was like "yeah..sure...just go ahead with ur girlfriends...i don't mind"..and i was fuckn surprised. haha im so weak ya...that night i ended up accompanying him for dinner at his crib...cuz i was like "what..you want me to go? Don't you miss me?" haha ewww..hate myself ay..i'm such an annoyin piece of shit" But now i'm trying to be a nicer person, just TRYING to be less bitchier. hmm...anyhows...i'm tired..and im goin to go nongkrong...loveeeeee you fatassblog.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Its 3am..

Well its 300 am and what am i doing awake mon? Today i didn't really do much, well actually i went to ex cuz kenny, cliff, deyta, jana, my sisters, and i felt like having dairy queen, then once i got there, i just didn' thave the appetite for ice cream or anything. Well after that we adjourned to taman lawang, infamous for street ho's and banci's i guess. But i find them quite pretty actually, i tried capturing one with my digicam tapi kods was just driving way too damn fast. But seriously i can't stand people that misjudge those poor human beings, they were just born abnormal, so leave it, leave em alone. I hope in the future, i can write a cover story about them and how they live for money through selling their bodies and just finding new means of ways to look like REAL women. But it is funny, when you see em walking on the streets and flashing their fake tits, it is funny i have to admit. But some of em can be really scary, it's like i feel like making friends with em sometimes, but i'm scared that the minute i wind down my window, they'll like grab my head or something and eat me! hehe :D ..canda deng. I feel like goin on an upside down rolllercoasteeeeeer, a crazy one, yeah i need it bad. I dunt wanna go to Dufan cuz that plc just gives me a constant headache. I don't mind the unsafe rides that creak as you sit on em, but i mean i just don't like the hot bloody sun, gives me a bad sun stroke. But the best part is after you're done with the rides, you just go to one of those tiny booths and buy yourself a pop mie, ahhh..it's heaven for me. Indonesian pop mie which they don't sell in malaysia, i think. Well i've only seen supermie and miegoreng and mie 100 there. haha okay i'll stop with the noodle-talk. Damien!? You actually read this? Man what a surprise to me! Didn't think y ou'd even bother to scroll through the first line, but looks like you did. Am i a great story teller? I bet not.
:D Right now i'm in my living room and underneath the table on which i am typing in this blog lies a tiny field mouse, it's so cute and all but i dont' dare to touch it, the same deal with roaches too man, i can't stand em. They are the worst! Ahhh..what do i feel like eating for breakfast later on ya? I want poffertjes and pancakes, oh god..i was supposed to go to puncak pas for an early feast, but look what happens int he end, plan gets cancelled. I'm leaving jkt this sunday and i'll be having fun ( i hope) in Penang with dear Kelly, i miss that crabby bitch man..she's like my best friend in KL...and i guess i confide in her the most among all my other friends. But i hope i don't get too annoyin and piss her off, cuz that'll lead to a major silent treatment. Hate it. I can't wait to go to chill out girl! we have to have to have to go there aite? There were lots of hot hunks there, i just looked straight ahead, left, right, and there they were, everywhere, just like that. I mean shit man..i was fuckin surprised the moment i opened the door that led to the hip hop section. It was a paradise. :D Awww too bad i can't go jet skiing in penang, after the tsunami incident, i'm sure my moma wouldn't want me to do anything stupid. But seriously, i'm desperate for that rush, i feel like using up my energy. haha. Shit man isn't it sad? No ones going to be here in jakarta anymore, its like i don't feel like coming back this summer, there's just nothing to look forward to anymore, no more fun, no more hangn out and stuff. It's so sad really.
Oh well i'm off to slumberland....wanna meet my cartoon friends and have a drink with em...i'm serious, these type of dreams do occur and its only the best. :D
Lovies, BELLYBUTTONO

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Just in the mood

Hey Mr. Blog,
haha well it seems mur has already completed scrolling through my previous entries, so here's another one for her to scroll on. Ya my ernie! Now that you're currently in Kalimantan prepared for the ceremony of your spiritual "OPENING", this so-called blog entry is dedicated to thee. I don't know what will happen to you, i'm thinking nothing really tapi mebe you'll just be more sensitive and vulnerable to things and perhaps your perception of life will change a slight bit. Ngk tau ah. Anyways today i didn't really do anything, just went to PS to walk around, went to lil baghdad to kidnap my sis back from her odd crowd of friends and had some strawberry shisha (deli), trus adjourned to 2nd floor for a beer, and ended up in SUBUD for some rumput! The green green grass of home..haha, you know that song? I don't think so ay. da fucks up with me and "ays" mon? Shit, you've got to stop me mur, stop meeee! hehe...stinko demayo...i quote taquito. Today was a restless day i have to say, i was just fuckin tired, my body is so lemas from a pretty louzy massage i had a few days ago, man they hit the wrong points, sometimes i'm so scared to get paralyzed. My neck aches; my back aches;and my thighs ache. Fuck mur! Lets just go to 'jamu-jamu' or 'bersih sehat' lain kali ya. I need aromatherapy, life's all about relaxation for krystaboo. hehe...but right now, what i really need is reflexology bebe...my poor feet have been workin so damn hard these days, always on the go, it's time to pamper em. So be it..besok gue harus janji to myself that i have to go to FOOTISH. I mean its an aromatherapy/reflexology plc, how shweet is that? Mur don't make me go without you..haha i will anyway then i'll just tell you whether its good shit or not. Abhi was telling me about our first bali trip together, he sed they went to a massage parlour and he picked the prettiest chick for cliff..haha..and a dude had to massage his feet. It was funny, how we were talking about who and who isn't a virgin in our class. haha it was so funny! And plus we were bitching about people, how funny. Love is blind they say? It is pretty true when i witness all these girlfriends of mine trying to kill themselves, hurt themselves just bcuz they're boyfs don't love em back, thats sad mon. I wouldn't want that to happen to me mur, i'm scared it will tho...its so risky to love someone and to also end up realizing that they don't love you the same way. So i wouldn't wanna risk that. But just seeing all these girls gets me so sick, it's like they can't stand up, they just can't control themselves and run nuts. It's stupid and tough on em, i know tapi uggh...it's really annoying! I'm totally the wrong friend to consult in terms of relationships and shit, hell i'm better at solving other ppls probs rather than my own. Like this dude, damien in my mass comm class, dude he's so fucked from this recent break up. He loved this girl n i guess they were highschool sweethearts, but eventually she ended it and that just pierced him bad. Even until now, he still complains to me about that bitch, about how he just can't help but love her so much. i guess your first love will always remain in you. Just like mine...haha...i so remember i had my first kiss from him. But i was like 6 back then, but everythings so clear in my mind. I wanna meet him so bad, but where is he, he's gone. I wouldn't even know if he was dead or alive anyway. Wow i feel so cerewet today, fuck my b.indo is getting so kaku, i can't stand this!? My tongue gets fuckn twisted in between sentences. Especially when i try asking my helper something. I'm like...um..mbak pri..'bisa um..bisa' and my tongue just fucks up. yay i haven't been to citos in a few days, world record, world record! i want nasi padang! i wanna eat like a messy pig, it's hard to do that in KL, cuz people barely eat with their hands there...so i feel like a complete outcast when it comes to eating anything that involves rice. i hate eating it with utensils, fuck utensils mon! Oi muri, haha i mean my dear ernie. So mur, you gonna try some m&m's with me or what? I haven't tried it yet, i think i'm just gonna have mine done omellette style. haha. i have a strange feeling it'll turn out quite yummy actually. Damn everyones askin me what im gonna do for my bday, i hvnt really given any thought about it, this year just seems so odd, like even my birthday won't stand out from other normal days. it's like i'll be celebrating nobody's bday. No major celebrations, i've learned my lesson from getting pushed in the pool, not nice. Something simple and memorable, i like! :D Fuck! i can't draw, i can't make collages, i can't cook, i can't read, i can't even make cards, hell i can't do anything these days, i can only club, eat, drink, smoke, laze around, and wala das about it dudette. Gosh! Idiot! quote mr. Napolean Dynamite. Fuckin pathetically hilarious movie. Okay i'm gonna peace out now! Don't want to bore any of you's! :P
Bel signing off...

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Friends just keep goin away by the day

Dear BLOG,
whats up? anyways while im at it, i'll make time for you, even though i have to send Kristine off to the airport, just felt like it. Murti's really sleepy and i understand that i should get some rest, but i just keep goin on and on, forcin myself to. This morning, i sent Arty off to her ciputat crib, haha...i'm gonna mmiiis you FLUFFY BUTT...i had fun with her. Spending New years 2005 was really weird. Jason got drunk and started crying, which was fuckin hilarious. MAny more. But i can't really think about it now...as i'm pretty much in a rush, so this entry won't be too detailed. All i can say at the moment is that i'm fucking tired! Oh god i can barely even sit straight, i've been straining my body, walking around, getting only 2 hours or so of sleep, not eating at the right time, and blah blah blah.
okay i'm going to soekarno hatta, see you blogggg..