Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Resolutions to consider

So, a lot of people complained about 2010 being a bad ROAR. But for me, although there were negative incidents, it really got me somewhere in life. Taught me a lot about new people I met, friends, and it kind of widened me up mentally. And I have to say, I actually enjoyed all the trouble because I like the feeling of overcoming shitty obstacles.


-At times it failed me, at times it didn't.
-At times I cried like a bitch, but other times I laughed like one.
-I cooked a lot and managed a pretty awesome concoction with the use of tomato paste.
-I discovered the best spaghetti bolognese ever at Toscano resto in Kemang.
-A long term relationship ended and I lost probably the closest friend in my life but hopefully when time heals and mindsets change, we'll be making jokes at a nearby mamak again in future.
-The Legends Bar opened, which was a reason to chill out and converse. So there was a hell lot of bar talk this year. And those Kilkennys really got me thinking.
-I went Island hopping for the first time ever.
-I met up with my Dad
-Attended my sisters Graduation ceremony
-Went to Phuket and enjoyed riding the Honda Scoopy
-I made a XMAS card for Murti
-I managed to let new people into my life
-Christmas was great!

Thats all I can think of for now.

However, the New Year has approached and it's time to bring forth all those undone resolutions over the years and just see what's doable enough.

But whatever it is, here's my list, my resolution, my goal to accomplish and scratch out, my benefit, my life to live.

1. I haven't SKYTREXED yet. Have to!

2. Meditate more frequently

3. Cut down on alcohol

4. Get into bikram yoga/yoga in general

5. Cook more, spend time in the kitchen

6. Earn more money

7. Shed 3 kgs.

8. Travel, finish of what's left of Southeast Asia at least

9. Improve plans, get organized!

10. Learn how to make decisions wisely

11. Control my temper

12. Take that big leap of faith

13. Make mama happy :)

14. Perhaps go for SUBUD (if im back in indo) and get "opened" :)

15. Be a happier person, don't take everything so seriously sometimes

16. Pick up a new hobby-arts n craft?

17. Exercise more! :D

18. Learn to not be so FRIGID and express my feelings more openly

19. Bungee Jumping!

20. Get those rabbit toys (for the sake of believing its the rabbit year)

Yeah that's about it :p

I don't know if I'll be adding more stuff. haha.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Post-mamak updates

I've decided to update this blog of mine. No matter how inactive, out of hope, and clogged my mind is, the inspiration somehow is stirring somewhere between the goo. Perhaps it's the chicken tikka and cranberry juice I had at Legends Bar, or perhaps it was the mamak session with elya and kelly.
We were conversing about our parents and their methods or should I say ways. Kelly told me she got smacked and slapped. Elya said he got belted. I said my father did the heavy encyclopedia book tactic where every hour he would add a book on both hands, that was because my sisters and I decided to venture into a little climbing adventure on the balcony. Then I remembered the mosquito bat incident, how he used it as a tool to shock us to our senses. haha. He would shock our toes, and trust me it's quick but hell yeah it shocks! That was a lesson for climbing the balcony for the 2nd time and of course being a rascal.
But it's amazing that as time goes by, those tools slowly vanish into the background of a couch or run out of battery-then you're completely in control like an adult and no longer suffer as a kid. The process of growing up is to get whacked, learn, be rebellious, and get whacked for it till you finally get it. Somehow, we're like naughty pets I feel but that doesn't mean the naughtiness has worn off :)
I actually enjoyed that mamak discussion, which naturally led me to think of Jakarta. The land-the city-the home which raised me, taught me, fed me. How could I not want to return? But then I thought, damn KL and their mamaks, how could I ever leave after-midnight delights such as canai, chapati, hot drinks, and such? Could I leave friendships that i've moulded over the past 6 years for a place i grew up in? Then I realized, KL has become my home, I've created a lifestyle and routine for myself here. To break it, hmm..now I'm thinking twice. I'm torn in between two cities, so it's seriously a war between nasi padang, road side bakso's and sate padang versus nasi lemak, chinese kopitiams, and banana leaf. hmm...well its not really about food but umm..yeah you get my drift.
If I could find a decent job here in KL, i told myself i'll stay. And If i could find an even better one in Jakarta, I told myself I'd start my life there all over again.
I'm off to bed now. It's a little late, but hey I'm still unemployed :) And all that Christmas Shopping for family, friends, and relatives-they have gotsta happen soon.

Friday, December 03, 2010

Pinch me already.

When you're a full-time bum, there's no excuse to be a bum right? Like really? When you're a bum, expectations from friends and family tend to increase tremendously.
There you go, sitting around (like a bum, may i repeat) on your couch watching some chick flick you have pretzel snacks to because chick flicks are the only movies you can watch alone and enjoy. I mean, i still have Shutter Island on my dvd rack, but i doubt i wanna depress myself alone with it. I need some buds to watch it with.
Anyways moving on.... then of course, someone calls. It's a friend you're not so close to. The next thing you know you're out the door, leaving the simple comforts of home and out to the pub with a cold glass of beer in ur hand. Yeah it's good sometimes to be out, but what if you've been out every damn day? No offense ppl, but the batteries need to charge emselves.
People say I'm a hyperactive HYPER BUNNY (no, not that way) but when it comes to being around people. Apparently, I break a lot of jokes, laugh at em hysterically, I'm noisy, I'm loud, I'm bitchy, I'm up for anything. Yeah well to be honest, it gets tiring being that way, sometimes it's a genuine thing i pull. But sometimes, it's just to break the frozen ice others are too lazy to break. Sometimes it's to heat up the circle and get rid of the awkwardness coming from all angles. Sigh.
It's true.
It's only been a bloody week since unemployment. Of course, I appreciate life more. As in I get to sleep, wake-up, walk out, eat, shower-anytime i want. But at the end of the day, you'll find a book to read, a magazine to work your brains and imaginations on, and your couch to save that tired ass of yours.

Moving on...lets talk about friends. Recently, I've come to a solid realization about certain friends I have here. Some have issues. Maybe I have issues myself, but I know what crosses my line.

1. Lets just say I call em out to have a drink at Legends Bar. They ask me who's there? I'm like people you don't know. Then they say WHO? I swear, please I would like to melt their brains. Or another scenario is they possibly know some peeps there, but they ask who else (even after you've already mentioned everyone). Holy moly this really rocks my angry pot.

2. Bel where are you, i wanna play pool? a friend questions me. I say in return, yeah i'll be playing at 10pm sharp at wine@nine. Then his reply "let me know if u wana play pool or not." I'm like wat the bullocks man, didn't I just clearly text you the time and venue of where I will be. Holy shit, certain people just don't read their messages properly. Please do next time, thank you.

3.Then there are the friends who take you for granted. The ones that usually decline your offer when it comes to outings, but you find them someplace else with their other batch of friends. In the first place, fuck your brains more and please be honest and say something like "sorry man, i can't make it tonight, gota hang with other peeps yo". Something light and frothy like that why dont you. it's utter bullshit to be that way.

4. The latecomers. You're suppose to meet em at a bar, you have already texted em the day before or even earlier during the day to remind, warn em of the exact time and venue you'll be present at. They say OK! like they're looking forward to the world. You think, this persons not gona be too late is she/he. Well, you go to the bar and you get yourself a beer, time has passed, you keep blackberrying to avoid looking too lonely or stupid waiting or you try to distract yourself with the newcastle match vs i duno who (something u dont give a hoot about) and that friend of yours is STILL NOT THERE!This friend is seriously quite ridiculous. You know it then and there. And you know it even more when people by the bar (that u aint close to) tell you that same friend of yours is always late. Because its happened countless amount of times.

5. The in-denial idiots. Okay everyone (including myself)can be in-denial sometimes. But not to the extent of blaming people right after you've committed some serious-obvious type of mistake. For example, you come late. You DO say the sorry word. But there's always a condescending after sentence like "yeah but you know, you've done that to me a thousand times". So wtf does that mean? you're sorry you're late, but because I've been late before, you have the right to commit the exact same mistake? huh? Plus I was late because my family was in town and informed you that there's a chance of me being late. Now, that is not even a fuckin excuse, that's when duty calls. My mama is more important than you, so I have to eat dinner with her and watch her finish that stout before i proceed to you. I'm lost for words right now.

I think i'm tired wriing about this, i'm just going to publish it. And now, if you will excuse me, im not tired right now. I'm looking forward to dinner.