A puffy eye-bag night it was. No laughing dreams, no flying pigs, just an invisible blood battle.
This morning, my eyes were curry puffs. heated up, swollen, and curry angry. All from no sleep.
I swear relationships seriously give you eye bags and increase your nicotine intake.
Somehow, nicotine makes you feel better at times like these.
If only couples could just let things go easily and move on to a good night of sleep.
He prefers to stay with the temper, attitude, and move on to a rotten night of sleep.
I hate that, it's too lengthy n tiring.
It gets OLD. DUSTY. MOULDY. SOUR.
I'm pissed that I bothered myself to disrupted sleep.
I'm pissed that he's bugging the shit out of me.
I'm pissed that i've already apologized and his greed balls wanna suck more apologies out of me
More over i'm pissed cuz it takes quite a fuckin country for me to say "i'm sorry".
It makes me feel weak to say sorry, but I have learned when ur wrong, u just are. The more you make it sound like ur right, the more the guilt deepens and you do realize it down the argumentative road.
So i didn't take that road. Instead i blurted out the apology and oh goodness hell it wasn't ENOUGH. Fuck that, there's only so much I can do. And he is no KING. Nor is he anything significant.
Well, he played 'GOD' last night.
Believe me, it didn't work for nuts.
If he wants me to respect him, he should be mature about accepting the apology. If he wants to accept it and nudge it back to my face. I might as well pick on his fuckin balls. That's why the guilt is no longer in me.
C,mon if someone wants to make someone feel guilty, the last thing they should do is throw back an apology right after asking for it. That's why i'm a boiling tomato now. Cuz its nail-biting annoying. retarded. childish. And everything it shouldn't be.
This is my method of arguing. The memory spike.
"Whoever in discussion adduced authority uses not intellect but rather memory."
- Leonardo da Vinci-
This is his way on the trippin highway: The stupid shield
"He read partly for information, partly for comparison, partly for insight, partly for the sheer joy of felicitous statement.He delighted particularly inquotations which distilled the essence of an argument."
-Schlesinger, Arthur M(eier),Jr-
"Men are apt to mistake the strength of their feeling for the strength of their argument. The heated mind resents the chill touch and relentless scrutiny of logic."
- William Ewart Gladstone-
What he lacks:
"I shall argue that strong men, conversely, know when to compromise and that all principles can be compromised to serve a greater principle."
What we BOTH LACK:
"Lower your voice and strengthen your argument."
-A Lebanese proverb-
There goes a never-ending battle. Sooner or later, i'll be able to make a script out of it. Yeah its long alright and there are episodes as well. I dont know what season we're up to now. But the Bold and Beautiful is not far off, no seriously.
ps. I can't believe i'm sharing this with Google.
Unlike my Marlys, he is worth quitting on.