So, a lot of people complained about 2010 being a bad ROAR. But for me, although there were negative incidents, it really got me somewhere in life. Taught me a lot about new people I met, friends, and it kind of widened me up mentally. And I have to say, I actually enjoyed all the trouble because I like the feeling of overcoming shitty obstacles.
WHAT 2010 DID FOR ME?
-At times it failed me, at times it didn't.
-At times I cried like a bitch, but other times I laughed like one.
-I cooked a lot and managed a pretty awesome concoction with the use of tomato paste.
-I discovered the best spaghetti bolognese ever at Toscano resto in Kemang.
-A long term relationship ended and I lost probably the closest friend in my life but hopefully when time heals and mindsets change, we'll be making jokes at a nearby mamak again in future.
-The Legends Bar opened, which was a reason to chill out and converse. So there was a hell lot of bar talk this year. And those Kilkennys really got me thinking.
-I went Island hopping for the first time ever.
-I met up with my Dad
-Attended my sisters Graduation ceremony
-Went to Phuket and enjoyed riding the Honda Scoopy
-I made a XMAS card for Murti
-I managed to let new people into my life
-Christmas was great!
Thats all I can think of for now.
However, the New Year has approached and it's time to bring forth all those undone resolutions over the years and just see what's doable enough.
But whatever it is, here's my list, my resolution, my goal to accomplish and scratch out, my benefit, my life to live.
1. I haven't SKYTREXED yet. Have to!
2. Meditate more frequently
3. Cut down on alcohol
4. Get into bikram yoga/yoga in general
5. Cook more, spend time in the kitchen
6. Earn more money
7. Shed 3 kgs.
8. Travel, finish of what's left of Southeast Asia at least
9. Improve plans, get organized!
10. Learn how to make decisions wisely
11. Control my temper
12. Take that big leap of faith
13. Make mama happy :)
14. Perhaps go for SUBUD (if im back in indo) and get "opened" :)
15. Be a happier person, don't take everything so seriously sometimes
16. Pick up a new hobby-arts n craft?
17. Exercise more! :D
18. Learn to not be so FRIGID and express my feelings more openly
19. Bungee Jumping!
20. Get those rabbit toys (for the sake of believing its the rabbit year)
Yeah that's about it :p
I don't know if I'll be adding more stuff. haha.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Post-mamak updates
So...
I've decided to update this blog of mine. No matter how inactive, out of hope, and clogged my mind is, the inspiration somehow is stirring somewhere between the goo. Perhaps it's the chicken tikka and cranberry juice I had at Legends Bar, or perhaps it was the mamak session with elya and kelly.
We were conversing about our parents and their methods or should I say ways. Kelly told me she got smacked and slapped. Elya said he got belted. I said my father did the heavy encyclopedia book tactic where every hour he would add a book on both hands, that was because my sisters and I decided to venture into a little climbing adventure on the balcony. Then I remembered the mosquito bat incident, how he used it as a tool to shock us to our senses. haha. He would shock our toes, and trust me it's quick but hell yeah it shocks! That was a lesson for climbing the balcony for the 2nd time and of course being a rascal.
But it's amazing that as time goes by, those tools slowly vanish into the background of a couch or run out of battery-then you're completely in control like an adult and no longer suffer as a kid. The process of growing up is to get whacked, learn, be rebellious, and get whacked for it till you finally get it. Somehow, we're like naughty pets I feel but that doesn't mean the naughtiness has worn off :)
I actually enjoyed that mamak discussion, which naturally led me to think of Jakarta. The land-the city-the home which raised me, taught me, fed me. How could I not want to return? But then I thought, damn KL and their mamaks, how could I ever leave after-midnight delights such as canai, chapati, hot drinks, and such? Could I leave friendships that i've moulded over the past 6 years for a place i grew up in? Then I realized, KL has become my home, I've created a lifestyle and routine for myself here. To break it, hmm..now I'm thinking twice. I'm torn in between two cities, so it's seriously a war between nasi padang, road side bakso's and sate padang versus nasi lemak, chinese kopitiams, and banana leaf. hmm...well its not really about food but umm..yeah you get my drift.
If I could find a decent job here in KL, i told myself i'll stay. And If i could find an even better one in Jakarta, I told myself I'd start my life there all over again.
I'm off to bed now. It's a little late, but hey I'm still unemployed :) And all that Christmas Shopping for family, friends, and relatives-they have gotsta happen soon.
tata.
I've decided to update this blog of mine. No matter how inactive, out of hope, and clogged my mind is, the inspiration somehow is stirring somewhere between the goo. Perhaps it's the chicken tikka and cranberry juice I had at Legends Bar, or perhaps it was the mamak session with elya and kelly.
We were conversing about our parents and their methods or should I say ways. Kelly told me she got smacked and slapped. Elya said he got belted. I said my father did the heavy encyclopedia book tactic where every hour he would add a book on both hands, that was because my sisters and I decided to venture into a little climbing adventure on the balcony. Then I remembered the mosquito bat incident, how he used it as a tool to shock us to our senses. haha. He would shock our toes, and trust me it's quick but hell yeah it shocks! That was a lesson for climbing the balcony for the 2nd time and of course being a rascal.
But it's amazing that as time goes by, those tools slowly vanish into the background of a couch or run out of battery-then you're completely in control like an adult and no longer suffer as a kid. The process of growing up is to get whacked, learn, be rebellious, and get whacked for it till you finally get it. Somehow, we're like naughty pets I feel but that doesn't mean the naughtiness has worn off :)
I actually enjoyed that mamak discussion, which naturally led me to think of Jakarta. The land-the city-the home which raised me, taught me, fed me. How could I not want to return? But then I thought, damn KL and their mamaks, how could I ever leave after-midnight delights such as canai, chapati, hot drinks, and such? Could I leave friendships that i've moulded over the past 6 years for a place i grew up in? Then I realized, KL has become my home, I've created a lifestyle and routine for myself here. To break it, hmm..now I'm thinking twice. I'm torn in between two cities, so it's seriously a war between nasi padang, road side bakso's and sate padang versus nasi lemak, chinese kopitiams, and banana leaf. hmm...well its not really about food but umm..yeah you get my drift.
If I could find a decent job here in KL, i told myself i'll stay. And If i could find an even better one in Jakarta, I told myself I'd start my life there all over again.
I'm off to bed now. It's a little late, but hey I'm still unemployed :) And all that Christmas Shopping for family, friends, and relatives-they have gotsta happen soon.
tata.
Friday, December 03, 2010
Pinch me already.
When you're a full-time bum, there's no excuse to be a bum right? Like really? When you're a bum, expectations from friends and family tend to increase tremendously.
There you go, sitting around (like a bum, may i repeat) on your couch watching some chick flick you have pretzel snacks to because chick flicks are the only movies you can watch alone and enjoy. I mean, i still have Shutter Island on my dvd rack, but i doubt i wanna depress myself alone with it. I need some buds to watch it with.
Anyways moving on.... then of course, someone calls. It's a friend you're not so close to. The next thing you know you're out the door, leaving the simple comforts of home and out to the pub with a cold glass of beer in ur hand. Yeah it's good sometimes to be out, but what if you've been out every damn day? No offense ppl, but the batteries need to charge emselves.
People say I'm a hyperactive HYPER BUNNY (no, not that way) but when it comes to being around people. Apparently, I break a lot of jokes, laugh at em hysterically, I'm noisy, I'm loud, I'm bitchy, I'm up for anything. Yeah well to be honest, it gets tiring being that way, sometimes it's a genuine thing i pull. But sometimes, it's just to break the frozen ice others are too lazy to break. Sometimes it's to heat up the circle and get rid of the awkwardness coming from all angles. Sigh.
It's true.
It's only been a bloody week since unemployment. Of course, I appreciate life more. As in I get to sleep, wake-up, walk out, eat, shower-anytime i want. But at the end of the day, you'll find a book to read, a magazine to work your brains and imaginations on, and your couch to save that tired ass of yours.
Moving on...lets talk about friends. Recently, I've come to a solid realization about certain friends I have here. Some have issues. Maybe I have issues myself, but I know what crosses my line.
1. Lets just say I call em out to have a drink at Legends Bar. They ask me who's there? I'm like people you don't know. Then they say WHO? I swear, please I would like to melt their brains. Or another scenario is they possibly know some peeps there, but they ask who else (even after you've already mentioned everyone). Holy moly this really rocks my angry pot.
2. Bel where are you, i wanna play pool? a friend questions me. I say in return, yeah i'll be playing at 10pm sharp at wine@nine. Then his reply "let me know if u wana play pool or not." I'm like wat the bullocks man, didn't I just clearly text you the time and venue of where I will be. Holy shit, certain people just don't read their messages properly. Please do next time, thank you.
3.Then there are the friends who take you for granted. The ones that usually decline your offer when it comes to outings, but you find them someplace else with their other batch of friends. In the first place, fuck your brains more and please be honest and say something like "sorry man, i can't make it tonight, gota hang with other peeps yo". Something light and frothy like that why dont you. it's utter bullshit to be that way.
4. The latecomers. You're suppose to meet em at a bar, you have already texted em the day before or even earlier during the day to remind, warn em of the exact time and venue you'll be present at. They say OK! like they're looking forward to the world. You think, this persons not gona be too late is she/he. Well, you go to the bar and you get yourself a beer, time has passed, you keep blackberrying to avoid looking too lonely or stupid waiting or you try to distract yourself with the newcastle match vs i duno who (something u dont give a hoot about) and that friend of yours is STILL NOT THERE!This friend is seriously quite ridiculous. You know it then and there. And you know it even more when people by the bar (that u aint close to) tell you that same friend of yours is always late. Because its happened countless amount of times.
5. The in-denial idiots. Okay everyone (including myself)can be in-denial sometimes. But not to the extent of blaming people right after you've committed some serious-obvious type of mistake. For example, you come late. You DO say the sorry word. But there's always a condescending after sentence like "yeah but you know, you've done that to me a thousand times". So wtf does that mean? you're sorry you're late, but because I've been late before, you have the right to commit the exact same mistake? huh? Plus I was late because my family was in town and informed you that there's a chance of me being late. Now, that is not even a fuckin excuse, that's when duty calls. My mama is more important than you, so I have to eat dinner with her and watch her finish that stout before i proceed to you. I'm lost for words right now.
I think i'm tired wriing about this, i'm just going to publish it. And now, if you will excuse me, im not tired right now. I'm looking forward to dinner.
Cheers.
There you go, sitting around (like a bum, may i repeat) on your couch watching some chick flick you have pretzel snacks to because chick flicks are the only movies you can watch alone and enjoy. I mean, i still have Shutter Island on my dvd rack, but i doubt i wanna depress myself alone with it. I need some buds to watch it with.
Anyways moving on.... then of course, someone calls. It's a friend you're not so close to. The next thing you know you're out the door, leaving the simple comforts of home and out to the pub with a cold glass of beer in ur hand. Yeah it's good sometimes to be out, but what if you've been out every damn day? No offense ppl, but the batteries need to charge emselves.
People say I'm a hyperactive HYPER BUNNY (no, not that way) but when it comes to being around people. Apparently, I break a lot of jokes, laugh at em hysterically, I'm noisy, I'm loud, I'm bitchy, I'm up for anything. Yeah well to be honest, it gets tiring being that way, sometimes it's a genuine thing i pull. But sometimes, it's just to break the frozen ice others are too lazy to break. Sometimes it's to heat up the circle and get rid of the awkwardness coming from all angles. Sigh.
It's true.
It's only been a bloody week since unemployment. Of course, I appreciate life more. As in I get to sleep, wake-up, walk out, eat, shower-anytime i want. But at the end of the day, you'll find a book to read, a magazine to work your brains and imaginations on, and your couch to save that tired ass of yours.
Moving on...lets talk about friends. Recently, I've come to a solid realization about certain friends I have here. Some have issues. Maybe I have issues myself, but I know what crosses my line.
1. Lets just say I call em out to have a drink at Legends Bar. They ask me who's there? I'm like people you don't know. Then they say WHO? I swear, please I would like to melt their brains. Or another scenario is they possibly know some peeps there, but they ask who else (even after you've already mentioned everyone). Holy moly this really rocks my angry pot.
2. Bel where are you, i wanna play pool? a friend questions me. I say in return, yeah i'll be playing at 10pm sharp at wine@nine. Then his reply "let me know if u wana play pool or not." I'm like wat the bullocks man, didn't I just clearly text you the time and venue of where I will be. Holy shit, certain people just don't read their messages properly. Please do next time, thank you.
3.Then there are the friends who take you for granted. The ones that usually decline your offer when it comes to outings, but you find them someplace else with their other batch of friends. In the first place, fuck your brains more and please be honest and say something like "sorry man, i can't make it tonight, gota hang with other peeps yo". Something light and frothy like that why dont you. it's utter bullshit to be that way.
4. The latecomers. You're suppose to meet em at a bar, you have already texted em the day before or even earlier during the day to remind, warn em of the exact time and venue you'll be present at. They say OK! like they're looking forward to the world. You think, this persons not gona be too late is she/he. Well, you go to the bar and you get yourself a beer, time has passed, you keep blackberrying to avoid looking too lonely or stupid waiting or you try to distract yourself with the newcastle match vs i duno who (something u dont give a hoot about) and that friend of yours is STILL NOT THERE!This friend is seriously quite ridiculous. You know it then and there. And you know it even more when people by the bar (that u aint close to) tell you that same friend of yours is always late. Because its happened countless amount of times.
5. The in-denial idiots. Okay everyone (including myself)can be in-denial sometimes. But not to the extent of blaming people right after you've committed some serious-obvious type of mistake. For example, you come late. You DO say the sorry word. But there's always a condescending after sentence like "yeah but you know, you've done that to me a thousand times". So wtf does that mean? you're sorry you're late, but because I've been late before, you have the right to commit the exact same mistake? huh? Plus I was late because my family was in town and informed you that there's a chance of me being late. Now, that is not even a fuckin excuse, that's when duty calls. My mama is more important than you, so I have to eat dinner with her and watch her finish that stout before i proceed to you. I'm lost for words right now.
I think i'm tired wriing about this, i'm just going to publish it. And now, if you will excuse me, im not tired right now. I'm looking forward to dinner.
Cheers.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
homesick!
I've been writing in my journal a looot-a looot.
It serves as the best venting portal ever. But you know sometimes since i have a super inactive blog, might as well fill it with whats-been-happening stuff.
Well i've been pounding my head on articles. Me no likey. Pounding it further on my journal. Just releasing all this negative flow of energy within, not good to keep it all in yknow.
So tonight i'm at home, yes thank you very much. I'm at home, bought HOT mag and Harpers Bazaar to just circulate my thoughts. Hot mags just for laughter. And fuck it's still gossip girl homies on the cover, still! I guess that's what sells huh. I'm not fond of GG. Managed the first season, then cheated on it with CALIFORNICATIOn mudderfarter. Awesome! Gotta love the fucked-up n articulate HANK MOODY! I know i do. :) Sexay.
Ok and the rest of the time i've just been at work or having a beer. Laid of the beer tho these past few days, preparing for my climb up KK. DOn't know if I should be afraid of the weather, looks real shit to me but oh well just climb the damn mountain, enjoy the scenic view, and yknow experience something diffy for a change.
I dont know why im so chirpy today. I think i'm gonna get a load of shit tomorrow, i'm so prepared for ups and downs these days it aint funny no more.
But I'm glad mur FINALLY FINALLY got a berry so I can bug the shit out of her whenever I want, whenever I can. :D Or when I see something interesting, at least i can just bbm her. Usually I text her and the package she subscribed to in the states is shitty, it can't go international. stupidos.
But anyways she's got a BB now! And and, I decided to check my post box today, got an electricity bill of woaaahhh (didnt even use that much broh) and a surprise handmade crafted card from MURTI. weee! I was so happy to see the bunny and triangles. Thanks mur, now i love triangles, were they stamped by the way? Looked really abstract and pastel, the way I like shadings and colors of life to be. Awesome fly. Effin tits! haha.
I can't wait to go back home. I've been dreaming, thinking, and smelling nasi padang! bakso! nasgor from the tukang outside ma house! dapur sunda! waduhhhh.....laper nih. aiyayay..and also the bakmi siantar. hehe. yummy juga. I just miss home. period. miss home. HOMESICK nih. Will try to return this Sept for deytas parteh. If work wasn't piling up like a pile of shitballs then i guess i would poof off in a sec. But noo! I'm gona go home soon and it's gonna be retarded! Just the way we homies roll baby! :p
And yes i have work tomorrow. I am off to tuck under my poofed up comforter and of course my ibu jane sheets. weeeee :) happy me.
tata.
nitey nite.
It serves as the best venting portal ever. But you know sometimes since i have a super inactive blog, might as well fill it with whats-been-happening stuff.
Well i've been pounding my head on articles. Me no likey. Pounding it further on my journal. Just releasing all this negative flow of energy within, not good to keep it all in yknow.
So tonight i'm at home, yes thank you very much. I'm at home, bought HOT mag and Harpers Bazaar to just circulate my thoughts. Hot mags just for laughter. And fuck it's still gossip girl homies on the cover, still! I guess that's what sells huh. I'm not fond of GG. Managed the first season, then cheated on it with CALIFORNICATIOn mudderfarter. Awesome! Gotta love the fucked-up n articulate HANK MOODY! I know i do. :) Sexay.
Ok and the rest of the time i've just been at work or having a beer. Laid of the beer tho these past few days, preparing for my climb up KK. DOn't know if I should be afraid of the weather, looks real shit to me but oh well just climb the damn mountain, enjoy the scenic view, and yknow experience something diffy for a change.
I dont know why im so chirpy today. I think i'm gonna get a load of shit tomorrow, i'm so prepared for ups and downs these days it aint funny no more.
But I'm glad mur FINALLY FINALLY got a berry so I can bug the shit out of her whenever I want, whenever I can. :D Or when I see something interesting, at least i can just bbm her. Usually I text her and the package she subscribed to in the states is shitty, it can't go international. stupidos.
But anyways she's got a BB now! And and, I decided to check my post box today, got an electricity bill of woaaahhh (didnt even use that much broh) and a surprise handmade crafted card from MURTI. weee! I was so happy to see the bunny and triangles. Thanks mur, now i love triangles, were they stamped by the way? Looked really abstract and pastel, the way I like shadings and colors of life to be. Awesome fly. Effin tits! haha.
I can't wait to go back home. I've been dreaming, thinking, and smelling nasi padang! bakso! nasgor from the tukang outside ma house! dapur sunda! waduhhhh.....laper nih. aiyayay..and also the bakmi siantar. hehe. yummy juga. I just miss home. period. miss home. HOMESICK nih. Will try to return this Sept for deytas parteh. If work wasn't piling up like a pile of shitballs then i guess i would poof off in a sec. But noo! I'm gona go home soon and it's gonna be retarded! Just the way we homies roll baby! :p
And yes i have work tomorrow. I am off to tuck under my poofed up comforter and of course my ibu jane sheets. weeeee :) happy me.
tata.
nitey nite.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Hustle the boogs.
I've been talking about work a lot these past few days. Over breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper, to myself, in my dreams. Enough is enough man. I need to stop whining, I waste a few hours on that with mates.
to effs man, the load is growing on me like a fat booger.
I can take it, i know. It's whether it's worth the burden.
Oh well, such is life.
Everyday, as i wake up I can't help but think of our "highschool reunion" time in Bali. It was awesome staying in Jasons villa, it was awesome hanging with the girls, it was awesome eating in commercialized Jimbaran ( crab was off the charts too), it was awesome hulahoopin by the beach, twas awesome partying till the crackbutt of dawn, it was awesome walking around, talking about private issues, dealing with it, catching up with the girls, aih it was just plain awesome. sigh. Think i left my brain there, no wonder i can't function properly these days.
I think i'm going to indulge in a pool session. It's been a while since i've fully enjoyed myself, might as well chill out to pool. Then get goin with my article.
I'm on leave tomorrow anyways. Yeah, on a Friday too :) Had that Bangkok trip goin but things aren't cookin well so therefore i'm not going. I'm going to use this time to plan my day, pre-organize my iDrop 4 debacle overview, and of course fix my bloody toshiba lappy. Hope i can squeeze all that in. oh man. stressfooooo.
I know what i want later. A Haagen Dazs Apricot & Cream icecream on a cone. Or on a cup?
hmmm....tricky treat i tell ya.
And i just want to space out, relax me back muscles, and yeah simply chill out.
laters poops.
to effs man, the load is growing on me like a fat booger.
I can take it, i know. It's whether it's worth the burden.
Oh well, such is life.
Everyday, as i wake up I can't help but think of our "highschool reunion" time in Bali. It was awesome staying in Jasons villa, it was awesome hanging with the girls, it was awesome eating in commercialized Jimbaran ( crab was off the charts too), it was awesome hulahoopin by the beach, twas awesome partying till the crackbutt of dawn, it was awesome walking around, talking about private issues, dealing with it, catching up with the girls, aih it was just plain awesome. sigh. Think i left my brain there, no wonder i can't function properly these days.
I think i'm going to indulge in a pool session. It's been a while since i've fully enjoyed myself, might as well chill out to pool. Then get goin with my article.
I'm on leave tomorrow anyways. Yeah, on a Friday too :) Had that Bangkok trip goin but things aren't cookin well so therefore i'm not going. I'm going to use this time to plan my day, pre-organize my iDrop 4 debacle overview, and of course fix my bloody toshiba lappy. Hope i can squeeze all that in. oh man. stressfooooo.
I know what i want later. A Haagen Dazs Apricot & Cream icecream on a cone. Or on a cup?
hmmm....tricky treat i tell ya.
And i just want to space out, relax me back muscles, and yeah simply chill out.
laters poops.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
pretty, but painful
Migraine with aura. Something I have to learn to live with for the rest of my life.
They say 15-20% of migraineurs get it. And i'm one of the few. If only migraine with auras were a good thing, then i'd feel special for making that cut. Believe me, i deserve a cert or at least an award after all the pain and suffering i've been through.
But it's a gruesome feeling. It ties you down and fills you with doubts. It's highly depressing when you find that your vision blurs in the middle of a meeting. It's highly depressing when you're clubbing with your girlfriends and you see a sudden burst of zigzaggy lines coming at ya. Starting from the central field of your eyes, dancing off to the sides. The aura hangs out with you for about 20-40 mins. I've had it longer, twice a day, which is not a good sight. And I have gotten alotta people angry for ditching them due to these frequent aura assholes i meet. I mean yeah it might be fuckin nice to see these lines fluctuating from one end to another but trust me its a painful experience. I wouldn't recommend it to anyone.
The trigger ho's
1. cigs
2. food with tyramine (chocolate, cheese and all the wonderful preserved goods)
3. alcohol
4. stress and anxiety (must seek therapy)
5. flashing lights
6. Loud noises (refrain from Rock n roll, heavy metal, etc at this hour)
Medication?
I take Imigran FDT 50mg whenever the pretty aura strikes. Must gulp instantly to prevent bad migraine from storming in.
What to do?
Consult a doctor. He's got the drugs.
No matter what, this migraine aura thing has no cure. It can only be suppressed. So you gota deal with it.
Well if you want to seriously get to the root of the problem.
Keep a migraine diary to track down your migraine pattern history.
For peeps with the same aura shit as me, make sure to record:
What time aura starts?
What time aura ends?
Measure the length of time once its done.
Medication taken?
Level of pain on a scale of 1------10
Food consumed
Activies done
It's a little tiring to write all that down when you're in a state of trance, but its best to just jot the important stuff down.
But sometimes it just pays you a fuckin unexpected visit, even when you're feeling healthy and in the zone. It will come to ruin your day either way. So I guess just try to avoid over exhausting your bod for more than 2 consecutive days in a row. You're sure to get it. Yeah i know laying off all the fun seems pretty shit but it'll definitely decrease the migraine visits.
NOTE: BRING MEDICATION ALONG WITH YOU AT ALL TIMES.
They say 15-20% of migraineurs get it. And i'm one of the few. If only migraine with auras were a good thing, then i'd feel special for making that cut. Believe me, i deserve a cert or at least an award after all the pain and suffering i've been through.
But it's a gruesome feeling. It ties you down and fills you with doubts. It's highly depressing when you find that your vision blurs in the middle of a meeting. It's highly depressing when you're clubbing with your girlfriends and you see a sudden burst of zigzaggy lines coming at ya. Starting from the central field of your eyes, dancing off to the sides. The aura hangs out with you for about 20-40 mins. I've had it longer, twice a day, which is not a good sight. And I have gotten alotta people angry for ditching them due to these frequent aura assholes i meet. I mean yeah it might be fuckin nice to see these lines fluctuating from one end to another but trust me its a painful experience. I wouldn't recommend it to anyone.
The trigger ho's
1. cigs
2. food with tyramine (chocolate, cheese and all the wonderful preserved goods)
3. alcohol
4. stress and anxiety (must seek therapy)
5. flashing lights
6. Loud noises (refrain from Rock n roll, heavy metal, etc at this hour)
Medication?
I take Imigran FDT 50mg whenever the pretty aura strikes. Must gulp instantly to prevent bad migraine from storming in.
What to do?
Consult a doctor. He's got the drugs.
No matter what, this migraine aura thing has no cure. It can only be suppressed. So you gota deal with it.
Well if you want to seriously get to the root of the problem.
Keep a migraine diary to track down your migraine pattern history.
For peeps with the same aura shit as me, make sure to record:
What time aura starts?
What time aura ends?
Measure the length of time once its done.
Medication taken?
Level of pain on a scale of 1------10
Food consumed
Activies done
It's a little tiring to write all that down when you're in a state of trance, but its best to just jot the important stuff down.
But sometimes it just pays you a fuckin unexpected visit, even when you're feeling healthy and in the zone. It will come to ruin your day either way. So I guess just try to avoid over exhausting your bod for more than 2 consecutive days in a row. You're sure to get it. Yeah i know laying off all the fun seems pretty shit but it'll definitely decrease the migraine visits.
NOTE: BRING MEDICATION ALONG WITH YOU AT ALL TIMES.
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
It's Wednesday. It's a boring day.
I Keep listening to Black & Blue by Miike Snow and Hey baby by Stephen Marley ft Mosdef. Lovely songs, pretty inspirational.
So I'm at work. I should be working, but i'm more or less done with the ho stack of articles and reviews. Just one more for Nightlife to seal it all.
I hate the word BORED. But I am feeling it and I've been clicking here and there to pass my time. Checked out National Geo and every goddamn thing is about the oil spill, yeah it's a pretty big deal actually. But it's gonna get old eventually in a few days or so.
Today, I literally saw a car on fire. I thought it was gona fuckin explode ala Hollywood blockbuster style. I watch too many movies I think, always over predicting, over expecting. But nah it didn't, apparently the owner drove it off anyway. Like what are you thinking man, driving it off without the thought of it exploding with you in it? Salute all the effing way yo! It would've been cool to ram straight into the ocean with it like in the movies.Claim insurance, it's definitely a technical fault. People were blaming the sun for it. possible?
I've been thinking a lot about life, flipping through the magazine i work for and checking out our latest NEW RIDES. Saw the Ducati Hypermotard 796. Gorgeous bugger really. I want one. haha. But i guess those dreams are far OFF for me. But i wanna get a bike to ride, i was pretty attached to the Honda bike i rode in Phuket, maybe i'll get it since its pretty affordable and i'll just use it to beat traffic. Yeah why not huh, racing against the city air sure sounds like polluted fun. Will get back to you on that tho, all these quickie holiday getaways aren't gonna get me near any bike really. Might rent a scooter in Bali tho, relive the highschool days :)
And just to melt the moolah dreams outta y'all, here's a pic of the speedy beast itself. So handsome.
Wish i could rock it.
Oh well just have to be patient I guess.
Krystabel......OUT! Watch Californication, haha i like how Ms. Collini does it. Collini....OUT!
So I'm at work. I should be working, but i'm more or less done with the ho stack of articles and reviews. Just one more for Nightlife to seal it all.
I hate the word BORED. But I am feeling it and I've been clicking here and there to pass my time. Checked out National Geo and every goddamn thing is about the oil spill, yeah it's a pretty big deal actually. But it's gonna get old eventually in a few days or so.
Today, I literally saw a car on fire. I thought it was gona fuckin explode ala Hollywood blockbuster style. I watch too many movies I think, always over predicting, over expecting. But nah it didn't, apparently the owner drove it off anyway. Like what are you thinking man, driving it off without the thought of it exploding with you in it? Salute all the effing way yo! It would've been cool to ram straight into the ocean with it like in the movies.Claim insurance, it's definitely a technical fault. People were blaming the sun for it. possible?
I've been thinking a lot about life, flipping through the magazine i work for and checking out our latest NEW RIDES. Saw the Ducati Hypermotard 796. Gorgeous bugger really. I want one. haha. But i guess those dreams are far OFF for me. But i wanna get a bike to ride, i was pretty attached to the Honda bike i rode in Phuket, maybe i'll get it since its pretty affordable and i'll just use it to beat traffic. Yeah why not huh, racing against the city air sure sounds like polluted fun. Will get back to you on that tho, all these quickie holiday getaways aren't gonna get me near any bike really. Might rent a scooter in Bali tho, relive the highschool days :)
And just to melt the moolah dreams outta y'all, here's a pic of the speedy beast itself. So handsome.
Wish i could rock it.
Oh well just have to be patient I guess.
Krystabel......OUT! Watch Californication, haha i like how Ms. Collini does it. Collini....OUT!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Heart Phuket
It was only last year when the crab & I realized we were in desperate need of a sunny, sandy, and tropical getaway. We booked the tix late last year and spent a few months down the road complaining about sucky kl city and how we just can't wait to get the hell out. Well we did.
Finally, we left for Phuket.
It was my first time there with misses crab.
And we loved it.
We stayed in Karon beach in a lovely hotel we didn't spend time in. But the beach was within our reach. Karon is literally the opposite of Bali, its very hush hush kinda quiet. At times you hear the waves colliding and churning, but besides that its just the breeze yapping at ya. And since its so quiet, you feel you can hear the clouds and the sun talking to you. Yknow that feeling? Or maybe im just an idiot.
The beaches, quiet. tranquil. super relaxing.
The local food, magnificent.
The islanders, friendly, humble, and generous with servings.
Allow me to introduce our first friend PINKO the CRABBO.
self-timer shot
Mr.sexay getting a beach bath. It was funny how he was fighting against the waves when it sucked him in a little. I wouldve saved him anyway if it were to happen.
Love this pic of miss kellycrabby.
thats all. There are more pics but its gona take me ages to upload so heres just a few.
Sunday, May 09, 2010
just a trespasser
I finished work early today. Went straight to the gym for cardio and the usual 15 reps of each bloody machine. Then took a quick shower and darted off to BSC, was disappointed that I didn't get to try THE PRESSROOM. Yeah, every freakin blogs givin rave reviews on it. So i guess sooner or later, it'll be my turn to. So me, cousin, and crab ended up in Chili's. I was planning on a salad in pressroom, but whaddaya know...i whacked an entire tray of Mushroom jack fajitas (beef). It was wicked for my tummy and it was enough for the night. Usually i have supper cravings. But now as i'm writing this, the thought of food hasnt popped up just yet.
Its 3am in the effing morning. I just had a teh tarik and now im buzzed awake. Sometimes i wonder why its always around this time i manage sleep. I would like to sleep at 1am atleast. But it never EVER happens. That's the problem about being single, no one to report to, no one to stop you or hold you back, no one to take care of you. So you'd rather go out I guess. But freedom's good for now...i ain't complaining much.
I looked at my studio and man if the owner wasn't such a stingebomb and a worry wart, then maybe I wouldve attempted to designsponge the shit out of it. I already feel like buyin the place from her so i can pimp it up permanently. But then again, i dont think i would want to cramp up in a studio for the next few years, i'd go for a 3 bedroom apartment.
Now i'm just checkin up FB. All my old contacts that i've forgotten from A-Z. Just trespassing through old-school friends, best friends, bitches, assholes, and acquaintances checking out whether they've changed, lost weight, gained weight, and who's mingling with who. I guess im being a nosey bee, but when you're bored in the AM...i guess FB can save ya.
I think it's time for me to doze.
Tomoro, send crab to KLIA. Hit the GYM. Stock up on the essentials. Buy a cabinet? and just be happy monkey for the day before the Heineken green space partay.
toods.
Its 3am in the effing morning. I just had a teh tarik and now im buzzed awake. Sometimes i wonder why its always around this time i manage sleep. I would like to sleep at 1am atleast. But it never EVER happens. That's the problem about being single, no one to report to, no one to stop you or hold you back, no one to take care of you. So you'd rather go out I guess. But freedom's good for now...i ain't complaining much.
I looked at my studio and man if the owner wasn't such a stingebomb and a worry wart, then maybe I wouldve attempted to designsponge the shit out of it. I already feel like buyin the place from her so i can pimp it up permanently. But then again, i dont think i would want to cramp up in a studio for the next few years, i'd go for a 3 bedroom apartment.
Now i'm just checkin up FB. All my old contacts that i've forgotten from A-Z. Just trespassing through old-school friends, best friends, bitches, assholes, and acquaintances checking out whether they've changed, lost weight, gained weight, and who's mingling with who. I guess im being a nosey bee, but when you're bored in the AM...i guess FB can save ya.
I think it's time for me to doze.
Tomoro, send crab to KLIA. Hit the GYM. Stock up on the essentials. Buy a cabinet? and just be happy monkey for the day before the Heineken green space partay.
toods.
Monday, April 19, 2010
The Boxes you keep
It's great to be alone sometimes. Perhaps the word "lonely" is not so lonesome after all, it's accompanied by a whole string of activities, plans, and realizations. Depends on how you want to look at it.
I've been shoving boxes in and out of my place for a few weeks already, never has it been such a pain to do it all alone. And no one can help you with it because it's your own goddamn stuff and only you know where all the miscellaneous goes.
The best part is unpacking them all. I found myself digging back into funny moments from the "ghetto soulz" days, our basketball tournies, Arty and me grooving to our spice girls routine for the talent show to the other times when we were all together chilling out, feeling, and learning new things as teenagers. Many flashbacks from the past just attacked me, like the first time I tried alcohol, my first drive, my first time, my first crush, and the first time hitting the clubs. My first everything. And I don't regret a moment of it. And thank god i'm still young enough to remember.
I've been shoving boxes in and out of my place for a few weeks already, never has it been such a pain to do it all alone. And no one can help you with it because it's your own goddamn stuff and only you know where all the miscellaneous goes.
The best part is unpacking them all. I found myself digging back into funny moments from the "ghetto soulz" days, our basketball tournies, Arty and me grooving to our spice girls routine for the talent show to the other times when we were all together chilling out, feeling, and learning new things as teenagers. Many flashbacks from the past just attacked me, like the first time I tried alcohol, my first drive, my first time, my first crush, and the first time hitting the clubs. My first everything. And I don't regret a moment of it. And thank god i'm still young enough to remember.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
I guess so, I just do
Its been a while since i've written personally.
But I guess the rain and construction drilling had my nerves itching to ink someplace. So here i am, typing the randoms away and getting away from the slow ass hands of time.
Uninspired. The word I've been stuck to for a few months now. I wake up and i'm always ALWAYS tired, dreading the day, and just not looking forward to any major shits. Life wasn't suppose to be this gloomy. It was suppose to be funny.
Until lastnight when I decided on SIDS for a pint of Kilkenny. Things started to change. It was fucking awesome just sitting there enjoying my kilk and talking to ms.crabby about life. About why we get so upset and emotionally psycho sometimes and why we provoke men in our relationships. Basically why we poke them till their angry guts blow to kingdom come. And then we sealed it with splendid laughter. mwahah.
Then I thought, man this is a rare occasion and we must make a toast to the perfect weather, Edmund (the bday boy we dont know), the irish ale, the pub, the company, the seats, and how we're so lucky to be warming up those seats exchanging oddball opinions.
Let's just say I'm glad to be here. Even if it gets gloomy sometimes.
Ok, here's my weekend chopped up into tit bits.
Friday
ZOUK'S 6th Anniversary-The Madhatters party (they call it)
I thought it was a disaster honestly. Last years theme of decorated balls, mushrooms, and characters were actually colorful and creative. This year, however they brought it down to Alice in Idunowhatland. It was a muddy puddy battle of tea cups and like one big skinny Mushroom which i thought looked familiar from last years gudang. From a picture view, it actually looked kinda pretty, but not when ur standing there with the mess. I felt cheated.
People were beyond dresscode rules, they dressed like psycho hatters with leather jackets(fa up with that yo)and combat boots? And one girl wore fishnet stockings on her face (thats quite gross)Girls were armed with feathers and weird animals fastened to their heads, it creeped me out a lil. Fashion victims to the end man.
And if they didn't have feathers or anything fancy on, they were too busy showing off their lower butt cheeks off their super short dresses.
The event was skanky, messy, uninspiring, packed, and was painful to be in. And it took me a while to find the MADHATTER himself cuz other ppl went all out on their outfits, so they all played a role at Zouk that night.
And the free flow was shit to, I was there on time but the drinks were busy flying off to the greedy punks. So that means we didn't get any.
Aiyayay...the word is cape deh.
Saturday
Cathys 25th Birthday Bash-Planter's Haven
Planter's Haven is a gorgeous place. We booked the clubhouse all to ourselves and really NOBODY was there except for the guards. We had a bbq frenzy of all meat types, from seafood to drips of pork, beef, lamb, chicken wings, sausages, potatoes, and salad. The process of it was really messy, disorganized, and everyone was just budging in saying this one needs a brush of butter, salt, peps, etc. Others were like No, we need it plain. But despite the chaos, the food tasted awesome. And I can safely say, we've earned the licence to grill. We tried copying Mr.Rainford. haha..yeah but we said things like "Shove this baby to grill and you're ready for a party!" haha close enough.
Extreme sports-grilling
And Finally, the end of Cathy's cake :)
Sunday
Was actually planning to install myself to some Sunday light Sinatra and other jazz tunes. But unfortunately, i had to go for Princess Adeline's 8th Birthday party.
It actually turned out to be fun! The birthday girl had three cakes, one barbie cake, a haagen daz ice cream cake, and a confused looking pikachu dino cake. haha...funny and corny. I quite like corny parties. Plus, the kids these days are pretty hardcore too, they're fierce, naughty as hell, and they've got balls THIS BIG. They dont even feel threatened by their parents and even cops. Like this boy was hitting all these kids with his penis shaped balloon and the clown was like "Stop it or else i'll call Police, you wouldnt want that" and the boy just went "So, I dont care, ask them to come" And the clown and I were looking down at this boy in disbelief. The boy didn't give a tight ass what we thought, he continued torturing the little ones anyway.
It got me thinking of my birthday party when i was a kid. My mother baked a brownie chocolate cake filled with m&m layers. haha classic, homebaked, and original too. I loved the damn cake. But oh well can't beat barbie can i? :p
She's so adorable.
After the party, I went to buy a good ass GERMAN kitchen knife. Forgot the brand name but I know its wicked as hell and it will enable me to chop vegetables faster than the speed of light. Okay not...but i'm glad i got the knife. its sexy as hell.
Yeah thats about the end of ze weekend.
The weekend on its way should be a great one. Taking it to the beach. woot woot!
But I guess the rain and construction drilling had my nerves itching to ink someplace. So here i am, typing the randoms away and getting away from the slow ass hands of time.
Uninspired. The word I've been stuck to for a few months now. I wake up and i'm always ALWAYS tired, dreading the day, and just not looking forward to any major shits. Life wasn't suppose to be this gloomy. It was suppose to be funny.
Until lastnight when I decided on SIDS for a pint of Kilkenny. Things started to change. It was fucking awesome just sitting there enjoying my kilk and talking to ms.crabby about life. About why we get so upset and emotionally psycho sometimes and why we provoke men in our relationships. Basically why we poke them till their angry guts blow to kingdom come. And then we sealed it with splendid laughter. mwahah.
Then I thought, man this is a rare occasion and we must make a toast to the perfect weather, Edmund (the bday boy we dont know), the irish ale, the pub, the company, the seats, and how we're so lucky to be warming up those seats exchanging oddball opinions.
Let's just say I'm glad to be here. Even if it gets gloomy sometimes.
Ok, here's my weekend chopped up into tit bits.
Friday
ZOUK'S 6th Anniversary-The Madhatters party (they call it)
I thought it was a disaster honestly. Last years theme of decorated balls, mushrooms, and characters were actually colorful and creative. This year, however they brought it down to Alice in Idunowhatland. It was a muddy puddy battle of tea cups and like one big skinny Mushroom which i thought looked familiar from last years gudang. From a picture view, it actually looked kinda pretty, but not when ur standing there with the mess. I felt cheated.
People were beyond dresscode rules, they dressed like psycho hatters with leather jackets(fa up with that yo)and combat boots? And one girl wore fishnet stockings on her face (thats quite gross)Girls were armed with feathers and weird animals fastened to their heads, it creeped me out a lil. Fashion victims to the end man.
And if they didn't have feathers or anything fancy on, they were too busy showing off their lower butt cheeks off their super short dresses.
The event was skanky, messy, uninspiring, packed, and was painful to be in. And it took me a while to find the MADHATTER himself cuz other ppl went all out on their outfits, so they all played a role at Zouk that night.
And the free flow was shit to, I was there on time but the drinks were busy flying off to the greedy punks. So that means we didn't get any.
Aiyayay...the word is cape deh.
Saturday
Cathys 25th Birthday Bash-Planter's Haven
Planter's Haven is a gorgeous place. We booked the clubhouse all to ourselves and really NOBODY was there except for the guards. We had a bbq frenzy of all meat types, from seafood to drips of pork, beef, lamb, chicken wings, sausages, potatoes, and salad. The process of it was really messy, disorganized, and everyone was just budging in saying this one needs a brush of butter, salt, peps, etc. Others were like No, we need it plain. But despite the chaos, the food tasted awesome. And I can safely say, we've earned the licence to grill. We tried copying Mr.Rainford. haha..yeah but we said things like "Shove this baby to grill and you're ready for a party!" haha close enough.
Extreme sports-grilling
And Finally, the end of Cathy's cake :)
Sunday
Was actually planning to install myself to some Sunday light Sinatra and other jazz tunes. But unfortunately, i had to go for Princess Adeline's 8th Birthday party.
It actually turned out to be fun! The birthday girl had three cakes, one barbie cake, a haagen daz ice cream cake, and a confused looking pikachu dino cake. haha...funny and corny. I quite like corny parties. Plus, the kids these days are pretty hardcore too, they're fierce, naughty as hell, and they've got balls THIS BIG. They dont even feel threatened by their parents and even cops. Like this boy was hitting all these kids with his penis shaped balloon and the clown was like "Stop it or else i'll call Police, you wouldnt want that" and the boy just went "So, I dont care, ask them to come" And the clown and I were looking down at this boy in disbelief. The boy didn't give a tight ass what we thought, he continued torturing the little ones anyway.
It got me thinking of my birthday party when i was a kid. My mother baked a brownie chocolate cake filled with m&m layers. haha classic, homebaked, and original too. I loved the damn cake. But oh well can't beat barbie can i? :p
She's so adorable.
After the party, I went to buy a good ass GERMAN kitchen knife. Forgot the brand name but I know its wicked as hell and it will enable me to chop vegetables faster than the speed of light. Okay not...but i'm glad i got the knife. its sexy as hell.
Yeah thats about the end of ze weekend.
The weekend on its way should be a great one. Taking it to the beach. woot woot!
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Easter island :)
I'm thinking of going somewhere next year.
Since I'm on a tight budge this year with the weddings, the trips, the shopping i promised myself to make, and all the food i've been eating.I doubt I want to squeeze the moolahs outta my piggy bank for this trip. I'm totally breaking bank this year.
2010 is quite a compressed year filled with activities, mostly for a wardrobe stock-up and tummy fillers. But yeah it's cool, i've learned to be patient. It doesnt feel right to leave just yet. And so I won't.
I've tossed and turned, slept and dreamt, googled and fantasized, and then finally oh finally I came to conclude my ultimate holiday destination. Before I decided on where to go, my goal was to complete Southeast Asia, head to Europe, visit friends in the states, but then I thought I will eventually do so anyway, so wtf is the rush kan? Just go easy, put a dot on the map already.
The dot on the map belongs to "Isla de Pascua" also known as Easter Island. I'm sure many have heard about its mysterious nature, but not yet been. It's a special territory of Chile and is infamous for its oddball statues. I checked out the images and honestly, it looks like you're in a Mario game set with all those big ass villain heads. I guess I want to go someplace random and unique? It's not about being different, it's about being there.
It looks like a sensational place to be. Like I just wanna picnic there and sip on my lemonade and enjoy the view. Like just friggin chill the hell out with a friend and the rest of the man made homies around. There's this online astrologer I assign my mind to for accurate readings, predictions, etc blah. So they listed several vaca spots for me to explore and do a little bit of soul searching in. Some I've been a few years back and some were too bloody dangerous to go to. Then I saw South America, then it led me to pulau Easter. :) Mainly, it's Easter Island, and on the light side I would like to check out the countries around Chile, like Bolivia, Peru, Argentina, etc..the countries that are always featured in Miss Universe pageants. I have to check it out! Ah was just checkin out the flight details, fuck its not cheap!
And here's a googled pic of Chile. Shit, so pretty.
So I feel like going there next Easter? I'm sure they decorate the island or form some sort of little Polynesian island party. I can't wait already mon, South America it is. whoopee!
TIll then, I'll be TRYING to save the means. HAVE TO!
Who wants to come with? :)
Since I'm on a tight budge this year with the weddings, the trips, the shopping i promised myself to make, and all the food i've been eating.I doubt I want to squeeze the moolahs outta my piggy bank for this trip. I'm totally breaking bank this year.
2010 is quite a compressed year filled with activities, mostly for a wardrobe stock-up and tummy fillers. But yeah it's cool, i've learned to be patient. It doesnt feel right to leave just yet. And so I won't.
I've tossed and turned, slept and dreamt, googled and fantasized, and then finally oh finally I came to conclude my ultimate holiday destination. Before I decided on where to go, my goal was to complete Southeast Asia, head to Europe, visit friends in the states, but then I thought I will eventually do so anyway, so wtf is the rush kan? Just go easy, put a dot on the map already.
The dot on the map belongs to "Isla de Pascua" also known as Easter Island. I'm sure many have heard about its mysterious nature, but not yet been. It's a special territory of Chile and is infamous for its oddball statues. I checked out the images and honestly, it looks like you're in a Mario game set with all those big ass villain heads. I guess I want to go someplace random and unique? It's not about being different, it's about being there.
It looks like a sensational place to be. Like I just wanna picnic there and sip on my lemonade and enjoy the view. Like just friggin chill the hell out with a friend and the rest of the man made homies around. There's this online astrologer I assign my mind to for accurate readings, predictions, etc blah. So they listed several vaca spots for me to explore and do a little bit of soul searching in. Some I've been a few years back and some were too bloody dangerous to go to. Then I saw South America, then it led me to pulau Easter. :) Mainly, it's Easter Island, and on the light side I would like to check out the countries around Chile, like Bolivia, Peru, Argentina, etc..the countries that are always featured in Miss Universe pageants. I have to check it out! Ah was just checkin out the flight details, fuck its not cheap!
And here's a googled pic of Chile. Shit, so pretty.
So I feel like going there next Easter? I'm sure they decorate the island or form some sort of little Polynesian island party. I can't wait already mon, South America it is. whoopee!
TIll then, I'll be TRYING to save the means. HAVE TO!
Who wants to come with? :)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Make do with 2010
It's been a while since i've blogged.
Works been "quite" hectic.
Life's been "quite" busy.
So now i'm free enough to doodle a lil sum'in sum'in.
The year 2010. I've always made resolutions prior to the new year. Well for the past 5 years I have. And in the end, the list always seems similar to me and never crossed off. Which means I have failed the challenge to complete list.
Things I wanna do this year
-shop in Bangkok for a whole years supply
-visit fam more often
-finish my work waaaaaaaaaaaaay before the deadline, not a day before it
-Climb KK
-make it for the back to back weddings
-lose weight, trim sides
-take up pilates
-settle payments on time
-cut down on beer (seriously)
-cook
-let interesting people into my life
-calm down and dont let temper rule mind
-read the dusty books
-not bitch too much
-pick up a new hobby
Yeah that about it for now. The challenge starts tomorrow.
Toods.
Works been "quite" hectic.
Life's been "quite" busy.
So now i'm free enough to doodle a lil sum'in sum'in.
The year 2010. I've always made resolutions prior to the new year. Well for the past 5 years I have. And in the end, the list always seems similar to me and never crossed off. Which means I have failed the challenge to complete list.
Things I wanna do this year
-shop in Bangkok for a whole years supply
-visit fam more often
-finish my work waaaaaaaaaaaaay before the deadline, not a day before it
-Climb KK
-make it for the back to back weddings
-lose weight, trim sides
-take up pilates
-settle payments on time
-cut down on beer (seriously)
-cook
-let interesting people into my life
-calm down and dont let temper rule mind
-read the dusty books
-not bitch too much
-pick up a new hobby
Yeah that about it for now. The challenge starts tomorrow.
Toods.
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