murs comin soooonn

Jakartas been kinda boring lately. I'm waiting for my friends to come down from KL, so thats when working in the office begins. I need to rest....but i haven't been resting that well....i'm tired. hm...i wanna do something cool with my friends, not clubbing if possible, not getting tipsy or drunk if possible, perhaps we can eat some good food together and start laughing about old times. Old times, how i miss it. Really really do. I watched "she's the man" at home, haha its kinda funny surprisingly, the guy Duke's so fuckin hot, like shit...fuckin hot. Thats the only guy me and my sisters agree with...just fuckin hot. haha....i'm in love with trans now.....not the hyperactive ones, just the ones that ease my mind, the ones that make you feel comfortable in life, more like what they play in the lounge. Yknow what's so fuckin wrong? i beat my sister in pool and i won a black label bottle and a lil bita money from q, holy shit dude....i was fuckin lucky! haha..i felt bad tho..i didn't deserve it tho...im fuckin bad in placing and i duno...its hard to focus ur mind to it. i wanna learn how to play golf, hehe.....going to the driving range sometime this week hopefully...if i have time. I'll be working my ass off, so i'm trying to enjoy and get some fresh air before they arrive. ah..shit. Murs comin in two days, i cant wait...she helps me out without even saying anything, just her presence makes me feel comfortable and in place. Makes me feel like i can just be happy all the time without stressing myself out. I'm quite stressed out actually, none of my best friends are here, so i dont really have anyone to turn to about my personal problems. But its nothing big, i just sound dramatic. So before i turn into a drama queen lets just change the subject. There's a company rave i'm goin to this july in singapura, not really looking forward to it in a way....haha....at least im bringing klauds with me....she's a better sister than my youngest sis. My youngest sis is going thru the stage where she loves friends and ignores family, i've been thru that, but i wasn't that much of a bad ass. I didn't smoke. haha. Anywhos....my plan for this week? Unpredictable.
very unpredictable. :D
K im back and i can't fuckin sleep. fuck...i'm getting so moody these days....pms season is over....nothings bothering me except my thoughts. i hate em, they are evil, shit. There's something i wish to challenge in work by this month, but my instincts tell me that no matter how hard i work, i might not achieve it! Hmm..i hat ethis feeling, the feeling of failing without failing just yet. I wish i wasn't so tied down. I need someone to cheer me up, where's everyone when i need em. I wonder why im stressing myself out? dude....there's something wrong with me...i need some hot chocolate to warm me up, to help my mind relax, cuz its been thinking alot. I've been dreaming alot lately...i dreamt that madonna was giving me piano lessons. what the fuck is that yknow? So weird.
Ok ok..i needa break.
im gonna get some fresh air.
adios.

in this place

Hey hey hey, right time for you isn't it. I went to vertigo lastnight, it rocked, i had fun. I'm so weak on drinks now man, shit. I get tipsy so easily now over a few shots of illusions. Shit...its safer not to drink knowing that i'm such a weakling. Life is great so far, haha wuhoo! nah not that great, but i'm handling it like an adult. TIme management is what i lack the most, i need to improve me time schedule. I'd like to have a lovely sunday today, nothing like my sundays in KL, its boring ova there. Here i have my sisters, so i'll prolly go to EX, miss that place gitu loh. Soon will be the IME rave, wuhoooooo.......................ime raves gonna rock! So weird how a company has its own rave huh. It's complete coolness. I'm sorry, my minds not in place, i feel odd. haha. Shit thats funny crap! Yep yep!
k i gotsta bounce now!
blahblah.....love love

in this place

Hey hey hey, right time for you isn't it. I went to vertigo lastnight, it rocked, i had fun. I'm so weak on drinks now man, shit. I get tipsy so easily now over a few shots of illusions. Shit...its safer not to drink knowing that i'm such a weakling. Life is great so far, haha wuhoo! nah not that great, but i'm handling it like an adult. TIme management is what i lack the most, i need to improve me time schedule. I'd like to have a lovely sunday today, nothing like my sundays in KL, its boring ova there. Here i have my sisters, so i'll prolly go to EX, miss that place gitu loh. Soon will be the IME rave, wuhoooooo.......................ime raves gonna rock! So weird how a company has its own rave huh. It's complete coolness. I'm sorry, my minds not in place, i feel odd. haha. Shit thats funny crap! Yep yep!
k i gotsta bounce now!
blahblah.....love love

as good as it gets

As good as it gets, i'm finally writing again. It wasn't too long wasn't it? Right now i'm researching for assignments, thought i could give my mind a break, i feel that it's already deep fried by now. I'm fried mentally. I cannot bear to think about what topic and what bodycopy and whatever shit for my ad. Plus copywriting assignment is just a few days away, a few days is not simple for a storyboard, but if there's one thing i'm good at, i'm good at procrastinating. I've been so lazy these days, i don't fckn get it. I don't. Lazy as in i'm real good at being a couch potato, i'm real good at it, serious. But my mind wants to do everything, my body doesn't react to it, it just lies down dead just like a couch. I am a couch or a bed, always there lazing around. But okay yesterday i woke up early, splashed a cold shower, finished off the evaluation bit, then chilled and etc. I'm not a coffee person, but recently ive been dying for starbucks cafe latte. i duno...i dont want to be addicted or anything. A lil bit of coffee for me is already effective enough to keep me awake throughout the entire day, but a few days ago, it did the complete opposite. I slept like a pig. Like honestly, i had a beautiful sleep, something of which i haven't had in dust years. Damn i want to be able to meet murti sooner or later this month, she's goin to bali (lombok) but i'm goin to bali, and i'm goin to j-town around the end of the month, ahhh i hope we enjoy together in bali mur, i hope we can meet up! Miss you kinkstressku. Um...what else do i have to say? I've been a good girl these days, just that i'm lazy. Man i haven't gone clubbin for such a long time, beer i haven't touched for quite a while, haha.....quite unbelievable isn't it...cuz i used to love beer so much, then i realized after a long ass time that it wasn't worth the gobble. I hate being drunk on beer, everyone knows what happens, i get so slutty, i can't even control myself, my mind gets possessed or something. haha. But seriously, i dont wanna act like that, it's not something to be proud of i would say. And the most i'll get is tipsy, but someone has to take care of me. :D i wanna be tipsy with my best friends. lets all enjoy one night of being tipsy, we'll talk about the funniest things, we'll tease each other, fck each other up, laugh at each other, whatever yknow. i just miss those days. i deserve that after my final exams. Once everythings done then i'll be the host of this best friend gathering. Hey its not gay, it's simply cool. Love you guys....will love you till the day i drop.
kisses to ur lovely cheeks